Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, January 23, 2016

Dont let the fear of the unknown hold you back from living your life

The fear of the unknown.

The anxiety about what is to come.

The sleepless nights filled with worry.

The racing mind and overpowering thoughts.

The feeling of fear.

The fear of the unknown can hold us back in life. Make us terrified in life.

In recovery, there is alot of unknowns. Will i like my body when i have reached my goal weight? Will my weight stop increasing? How much can/should i eat? Will i ever truly recover? Will i ever find balance? Will i get my period back? Can i still eat the same way when i have reached my goal weight? Will the bloating go away? etc etc

So many unknowns and fears, and that can hold you back. But recovery is a jump into the dark, and then stumbling your way forward into the light. You need to take that leap, and just keep moving forward even if everything feels unknown and scary, even if you dont know the answers or there is alot of anxiety about the unknown. You cant let that hold you back.

I can say from my recent experience..... the fear of the unknown regarding university. Sleepless nights, anxiety, fear.... if i had listened to those thoughts i would have said no to university, curled up into a ball and refused to be an adult. Refused to be mature or do things that were scary and unknown..... because, it IS scary. There can be anxiety involved where there are so many unknowns and unertaintitys.

But you can get through it.... if you dont push past those feelings, how will you ever get stronger? You will always be controlled by those feelings otherwise, and that is not a life to live. Then you barely live a life because you are so scared of going out of your comfort zone.

The anxiety beforehand is often the worst, as your mind can paint such vivid and negative pictures. But afterwards the anxiety can often decrease when you realise that you got through whatever it was you feared, that the unknown wasnt as scary as you imagined.

You need to push past those fears and not let them hold you back. Because even if your mind can create very unappealing images of how things will turn out, it often isnt that way in reality and even if it is, you can get through it. Dont let the fears hold you back.

Whatever fear it is that is holding you back in life, you need to fight it and know that you can get through it!!

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