Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Tuesday evening update

Today I have felt like writing lots but my lack of computer makes me so demotivated. Typing on a mobile just isn't the same, so longing for a laptop or computer access so I can try to answer all your questions and posts.  But most of all, longing for my test to be over! (How many times have I said that today? Too many I guess. Sorry for the repetitiveness!)

The plan was to study today, which I did for a few hours but then by 4pm I was hungry and needed to eat a proper lunch, not just snacks. So I took a pause to make myself food,  then I thought I'd watch the latest episode of a series but half way through my dad calls me and wants to talk. Then 40 minutes later I end up in a long conversation with my mum and then back to watch the last half of the episode.  And then I realise I had roughly an hour until I need to leave so no point on studying and might as well make myself something to eat before I leave. ...... so the studying today, well it could have been better. But tomorrow is a new day with new hours to spend studying! !

At the moment I am on my way home from crossfit where the workout was one of the toughest. It looked easy but after 10 minutes my arms gave out on me and push ups which are so easy for me became almost impossible. I could do 2 before my muscles told me no and it was just to take a moment before trying to do 8 more.... The workout also included pull ups, something I never do and can't do ^-^ atleast this time I didn't feel like crying because I'm bad at them, it's just to progress and try my best. Hopefully I can only get better I guess :) a tough workout and can't say it was so fun because in my mind it was like a constant stream of cursing XD haha.

Otherwise I also realised for the 5th time now (I never learn) that pineapples cause like a mini allergic reaction or something anyway. I love pineapple so eat it anyway but I need to learn that my body doesn't like it :( so many delicious foods (not going to name them as that could trigger people) which I can't eat. So that sucks :( but I'm sure I'm going to eat it again anyway because well I can't seem to accept that my body can't handle certain foods even though I like them!!

So much babbling about non important things, but that's life. Also, below are some photos of daisy when I got home this morning. My bed is the only bed she is allowed in (or well, not really but I'm not so strict about it. ) and she takes her chance to make herself comfortable when I'm not there!!!


  1. oh hun i know the feeling i can't eat mangos either - whats with the exotic fruits eh it sucks! x

    1. Haha atleast there is other delicious fruit anyway :)