Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Wednesday and university results


So my morning starts by 1) waking up 10 minutes before I would have to leave for school.  Each evening I put on 5 alarms but because my mobile just does what it wants none of those 5 alarms rang and so I woke up late. At first I couldn't believe it and thought, how am I supposed to get ready, eat something, check my bag, brush my teeth and be out the door within 10 minutes. But then I check my phone and see that I have an email from my teacher saying that the class wasn't obligatory as it is just repetition. The relief I felt,  I mean it's not that it would have mattered if I came late anyway but if we were learning something new I wouldn't have wanted to miss it. And as I felt that morning stress and I hate coming late I decided to just spend the day studying in my own, I am sure I would learn more that way anyway.  Even if I'm sure I might have gotten some tips or tricks from the teacher. The choice was made so instead I had a half stressful morning before heading to the library. I also woke up with a blocked nose, blocked ears and sore throat this morning. So going to take lots of vitamins and minerals and get enough rest (so no working out for a few days) and hopefully a cold won't break out completely :) I think it's just the stress from the past weeks that has built up and now when I'm not feeling so stressed (weirdly)"cold like symtpoms" break out. Oh well, that's the winter months!!

Also,  I got the result from my application to university and I got into 2 courses and a reserved place for the dietician program!! Yaay!!!! I was not expecting that. I haven't said yes but I am pretty sure I will :) I want to study both courses but that would mean studying 133%, haha not sure that works? But atleast the first course which is the first term which is 5 or 6 months long I think. It will be alot of chemistry and biology and alot of paper writing but it has to be learnt and it's the first course of the dietician program.  I am hoping I get into the program though which is 3 years :)   I am super excited and all ixwant to do now is to solve money and loans (sucks to have loans but It's the only way) and also to try to find an apartment. I could travel but that would mean roughly 3 hours of travelling a day and I really don't feel like that, so hopefully I get an apartment otherwise I will have to commute each day. At the moment I am struggling to study maths as I am so excited about university!! I find out whether I get into the program on the 28th, but as I want to study the course anyway and have gotten into the course I can begin looking for student apartments now :) it is exciting and scary.

When I told my boyfriend and we talked on the phone I know he was a little sad about it. I think he has sort of been dreading the results, as he knows that if I got in i would move... and i do feel bad for him,  but if we both want the relationship to work then it will. And it really isn't so far, 90 minutes with public transport or a 50-60 minutes car drive. So its nothing, but I guess not being able to see each other whenever might be tough. Also the fact that I have been so stressed and busy with maths that I haven't had so much time for friends or my boyfriend. But I'm not so worried about our relationship, I am just exited to move and to study something (very tough but hopefully fun!). I mean  I might not even be able to move and will just have to commute and then we won't be able to see each other anyway as all my time will be spent commuting, at school, studying or the gym. Anyway, exciting news and as I just feel like saying "f**k it" about maths I thought I would write a post :) I still need to pass my maths test bht atleast I know I got into university!! Yayyy.

*picture, how im feeling right now!*

20 comments:

  1. Yayyy izzy!
    I'm really happy for you!
    And I also wantend to say to your blog post before that you are successful with your blog because you are so honest on here with your feelings and emotions. If I'm reading your blog I cab find some piece of advice and also if your feeling low,I know I'm not alone and that it is normal to feel low. I would like to send you a huge present because you helped me so much with my eating disorder and my depression, so maybe if I get rich later I give you much of it that you can open a comapny where you help young girls and boys!! XD
    I'm joking but you are great!!!

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    1. Haha, I'll take a check ;);) (joke!) Kind words is enough for me, I just like knowing I am helping people and can make a difference in the world!! I am glad I have helped and believe that honesty is bes, even if at times it is tough. I hope you have a lovely week!

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  2. Congratulations . I just hope you take care of yourself and make the right decision. You don't have to say yes, remember your health comes first.

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    1. Thank you :) well first off I am going to begin and see how things go. For now I'm just excited, as well as a little panicked about all the changes. :/

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  3. Congrats Izzy. Well done. Yesterday VS show came out and I think it is very triggering, what do you think about the show? Do you watch it? Can you write a post about it and how to cope when things like the VS show is on or when pictures of VS models are in magazines ? Thank you in advance x

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    1. Thank you :) ill try write about this in a post :)

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  4. well done honey so proud of u yay exciting times ahead girlie whoop whoop it's uni time!

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  5. Congratulations! That is so awesome, I´m so so happy for you :)
    I hope you find a nice apartment.

    -AT

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    1. Thank you!! Haha not sure how nice an apartment will be, but atleast an apartment!! :)

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    2. Hahaha! Believe I know what you mean. I´ve lived five years in 17 m2 "apartment" XD But it´s still home <3

      -AT

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    3. Haha exactly. The apartments /rooms I've looked at are between 13-20m2 but I mean that's eniugh for just me and it's better than nothing! A bed and a microwave and I'm fine .... Ohh and some type of fridge & freezer is necessary as well!!!

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  6. Warmest congratulations! DELIGHTED to hear this news.

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  7. Such great news! I can imagine the relief.
    Oh, and you've got another stuffed head over here. Hopefully you'll be fine soon.

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    1. Thank you!! I hope you feel better soon as well!

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  8. Aaaww CONGRATULATIONS!! This seriously made me so happy, good luck!! You're amazing and you definitely deserved that place!

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  9. OOOOOOOh Izzy ;) I am so so happy for you ;) CONGRATULATIONS ;)
    I think it is so great that you finally made this decision for yourself and this will be a new exciting chapter in your life, which you definitively can look curiously forward to ;) I wish you all the luck and love in the world ;)
    Nutella- Ange ;) xxx

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    1. Thank you so much! It's nerve wracking bht also exciting!!

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