Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Monday, December 28, 2015

Sushi evening

Hello :)

I'm sorry for the lack of advice posts today, I just haven't had the time to write any posts today. But I'm going to try get around to writing some type of advice/help posts for the next few days!  Also get around to answering comments. ... haven't been so great on the front recently, so I apologize!

Today has been a busy day with a lot of travelling back and forth! However to end this day my sister and I decided to go eat at an Asian buffet for dinner. I was looking forward to eating out, though it didn't quite turn out so nice ^-^

The place we had planned to go to was closed so we settled for another place which we thought would be good. We started off by ordering a plate of sushi before we got the buffet food. However I got some comments from one of the staff working which I thought was very rude and they stared at me while I was getting food, as if worried that I was going to take too much and not finish it.  The restaurant weren't so keen on people eating so much, even if it was a buffet it didn't seem like they wanted people to go and and take more. It just felt awkward and weird there, like I wasn't quote allowed to eat and not to mention the unnecessary comment I received.  I brushed it off though my sister wasn't so quick to brush off the comment. The food was also super spicy and I'm very sensitive to spicy food which means the slightest bit of spice and I'll have tears rolling down my cheeks,  and if others react to the spice then I'll for sure be sitting there and overheating. Which was what happened to me.... eyes tearing, tongue burning, lips swelling, overheating and having to sit there with I've cubes in my mouth to try to cool down the heat and burning, hahahah. All in all, not the best dinner or restaurant experience... but I'm not planning on going back there. Rude staff,  unnecessary comments and feeling like they were watching me all the time, not so nice. But I enjoyed the time with my sister anyway :) :) this evening it's movie time and then bed time!!

I hope you have all had a lovely day and have a great week and rest of the year :)

Leave comments if you have any questions or topic requests :)


  1. Hi!
    I´m from the Czech republic and I have problems with my body, food, eating... I'm slightly underweight. You probably understand me. I found your web and I read yours articles about anorexia and recovery. Your life and journey to healing are very motivating for me. Thanks!


    1. <3 if you have any questions or need any advice you can always ask,or go and look back on old posts or use my FAQ for older advice posts :)

  2. What did they say? :o

  3. Oh izzy I'm so sorry! I know this is completely off topic, but I was underweight (never anorexic but have restricted) and had some disordered thoughts. I am finally at my lowest goal weight, but I am still trying to overcome fear foods and the disordered thoughts. Anyways, I used to be very athletic (football) and so I love exercise and running. I recently began working out again and running. Problem is, I feel like I can't get better/stronger. Granted it's only been about a month and a half, but I'm currently only able to run a mile (with several stops), and my workout consists of pretty much bicep curls with 5 lbs on each side/crunches/pushup/planks. So nothing really intense. I realize this may sound like I'm just not at a good weight yet, but I am! According to my dietician anyways. But I was just wondering how long it took you to increase in weight or whatever, or how you were able to build the stamina to run for a whole hour, or any tips in general. Like how your routine changed from when you recovered to now. My brother says that it will take time and that I have to just keep continuing with what I an going and slowly it will increase. But I tried increasing the weights by 5 lbs each, and It was too much. I couldn't do as many curls. I was also thinking of starting dead lift or other forms of exercise I would enjoy. I really appreciate it if you could answer me izzy! I really want to get strong! I love the feeling! Thank you izzy!

  4. Sounds like such a fun day! love seeing that smile, Izzy! :)

  5. Hey I have written you before but you havent answered :( i would suggest writing about dealing with social drinking (occasional), dealing with alcohol calories, staying late --> hunger, relaxing at party and tryihg to enjoy oneself. Thank you

  6. Surely in any restaurant or anywhere one eats out, it is unnecessary to comment about quantities people eat! I hope you find a nice place to enjoy eating out at next time :) X

  7. Sorry to hear about your bad restaurant experience, but at least you got to spend time out with your sister, which was nice. I wouldn't go back to that restaurant either - maybe you should complain to their manager?

  8. Ok - heres a topic for you, what do you think about hoarding food? IE buying several packets of one item when all you really needed was one?
    This is something that has increasingly got worse since I started recovery. Its like I try an item of food that I haven't had for years, like it, and go out and practically stockpile it. My spare bedroom is full of things like boxes of cereal, biscuits, chocolate spread etc because I have started eating these foods again and gone out and brought loads. I used to do this a bit before recovery - decide I was going to try an item of food and end up buying loads of it when 9 times out of 10 I never actually got round to eating the food - after a couple of months I would either throw it away or donate it to the food bank. At least now I am actually eating some of the food I buy, but I`m buying way too much of it and that's not normal is it? I never have and still don`t binge, so that's not the reason why I do it. My partner says I shouldn't do it as the shops are hardly going to run out, but I can`t help it.
    What does this mean? I don`t mind doing it when I am actually buying it but afterwards when I see the amount I have accumulated it makes me feel bad, hence why I often get rid of it.
    If you have any thoughts on any of this I would be interested to read what you think?