Thursday and a long study day with a few moments of procrastination of course! In one of my moments of procrastination I did a "guess who you are test and from my answers I was apparently a happy 50 year old male, hahahha. Not quite?
Otherwise maths is stressing me and I just don't want to anymore. According to my teacher were supposed to be able to open the 200+ page book and able to do whatever question we first see. I open the book and began asking myself, what is this? Have I learnt this? What is the question even asking me to do? And that is my biggest worry at the moment, that most of the time I don't even know what the question is asking me to do.... It says "evaluate" but I could do that 5 different ways, and I don't know which way it is asking me to evaluate the term. But also there are so many formulas and things which turn into things and a whole book of small things I need to remember, which I definitely don't as I have other things on my mind.
So much maths today and I don't feel any smarter. At one point I got so irritated that I had to put on my workout clothes and go for a walk to get rid of the irritation. ^-^ school life, I'm sure that I am not alone in feeling that way at times!
Otherwise, I looked back at posts from exactly a year ago and you know what... exactly a year ago my phone broke completely and I was feeling very low and negative due to stress and was getting bad effects and symptoms from antibiotics..... and a whole year later and I am in the same situation though now it's my computer and not my phone ^-^ somethings just don't change I guess. Anyway I have changed medication and I am already noticing a difference. The ones I was taking lead to extreme nausea, feeling terrible and coughing alot of blood which was terrifying. So I am glad that I have changed medication and don't feel nauseous anymore! ! ^-^
Also to end this post and this day, trying to get back into positives of the day. I keep saying that I will start with positives of the day but then I forget or I have a terrible day and finding positives isn't easy, but it's even more important then!
So my positives of the day:
Oatmeal (!!) Pretty much the only thing I've eaten today as it's the only thing at my boyfriends place apart from beer 😂 (and no my boyfriend doesn't eat oatmeal, that's mine!)
It's not minus degrees, so it means going for walks really aren't that bad
Listening to old music - Maria mena on repeat today!
At the moment I am so tired so just want to sleep and am excited for tomorrow, I just want to be home and to cuddle with my dog, haha.