Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, December 5, 2015

Saturday and family dinner

Today has been a day filled with so many different feelings.

Started off feeling very energetic and ready for the day.  Yesterday I ate lots and lots of food and today I had so much energy and my workout went better than ever. I never wanted to leave the gym because it felt so good there. Like I mentioned before I'm doing more crossfit inspired workouts and working out in an area without mirrors and I really like that. The gym can be such a vanity place. I mean alot of people go to the gym just ti change their body and then they stand/workout infront of mirrors. But what about people like me who aren't there to change their body,  but to do what they love and to progress but that doesn't have to mean physical progress. It's nice to workout and not just stare in a mirror, it's so much more effective.  Infact, if you workout in a gym turn your back to the mirror sometime and do a workout and not look in the mirror at all, unless you need to to make sure your technique is ok. If you do decide to do this, comment below and let me know how it went/how you felt :)

Anyway, then after the gym it was study time at the library and I just feel more stupid each time I study. I must learn something but it feels like I just find more things I don't know.... oh well, I'm not even going to get into it. But I just felt tired, unmotivated and very much done with maths. 5 days to go.... I can do it!!!

Then I got home feeling super hungry and tired and threw some food into me and was then told that my aunt and her partner are coming for dinner to celebrate my birthday.... I was not aware of this XD and I was also asked to make a cake.  So after drinking some coffee followed by an energy drink (stupid idea -_-) i got ready and then made a chocolate cake just before my aunt and her partner arrived. By then the inside shaking had begun from the caffeine..... I've actually been really good and replace coffee and energy drinks with green tea, so now something I could drink with no problem lead to shakiness. Not a nice feeling at all... like when yiu have extreme anxiety or panic and you just begin shaking and can't control it and when yiu hold something you drop it because you can't quite grip the item due to the shakiness. .... that was me :/ but I learn from my mistakes, smetime I hope! But the dinner was enjoyed anyway, a starter, main and then my chocolate cake with cream for dessert. And a small glass of rosè! Now I'm feeling super tired and full so ready to sleep :)

I hope you have all had a great day and have a lovely Sunday! !


  1. ah you look so pretty izzy, looks like the cake was a winner judging by the scrapped clean plates! xx Happy belated birthday gorgeous x

    1. The cake was definitely a winner, everyone loved it! And thank you :)

  2. What camera do you use?

    1. A Sony cybershot v 60 i think it's called :)