Today has been a day filled with so many different feelings.
Started off feeling very energetic and ready for the day. Yesterday I ate lots and lots of food and today I had so much energy and my workout went better than ever. I never wanted to leave the gym because it felt so good there. Like I mentioned before I'm doing more crossfit inspired workouts and working out in an area without mirrors and I really like that. The gym can be such a vanity place. I mean alot of people go to the gym just ti change their body and then they stand/workout infront of mirrors. But what about people like me who aren't there to change their body, but to do what they love and to progress but that doesn't have to mean physical progress. It's nice to workout and not just stare in a mirror, it's so much more effective. Infact, if you workout in a gym turn your back to the mirror sometime and do a workout and not look in the mirror at all, unless you need to to make sure your technique is ok. If you do decide to do this, comment below and let me know how it went/how you felt :)
Anyway, then after the gym it was study time at the library and I just feel more stupid each time I study. I must learn something but it feels like I just find more things I don't know.... oh well, I'm not even going to get into it. But I just felt tired, unmotivated and very much done with maths. 5 days to go.... I can do it!!!
Then I got home feeling super hungry and tired and threw some food into me and was then told that my aunt and her partner are coming for dinner to celebrate my birthday.... I was not aware of this XD and I was also asked to make a cake. So after drinking some coffee followed by an energy drink (stupid idea -_-) i got ready and then made a chocolate cake just before my aunt and her partner arrived. By then the inside shaking had begun from the caffeine..... I've actually been really good and replace coffee and energy drinks with green tea, so now something I could drink with no problem lead to shakiness. Not a nice feeling at all... like when yiu have extreme anxiety or panic and you just begin shaking and can't control it and when yiu hold something you drop it because you can't quite grip the item due to the shakiness. .... that was me :/ but I learn from my mistakes, smetime I hope! But the dinner was enjoyed anyway, a starter, main and then my chocolate cake with cream for dessert. And a small glass of rosè! Now I'm feeling super tired and full so ready to sleep :)
I hope you have all had a great day and have a lovely Sunday! !