Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, December 3, 2015

Recovery is....

Recovery is figuring out which parts of you to save and which parts to let go. Brushing out all of that dead hair and 
sweeping it into the trash.
Recovery is knowing that even though you don’t want to eat, your body will thank you later and
so will your mind. 
That when you’re feeling faint, it’s time for a snack.
That the nausea is all in your head
that your stomach is, in fact,
actually bigger than your eyes.
Recovery is making new friends for the ones you drove away, the ones that fell away, but
apologizing to the old one’s with no intent of ever winning them back.
Recovery is knowing that not every day can have a point
and you shouldn’t fill the lacking minutes with hunger. That
starvation = anxiety and anxiety = starvation.
That there will always be someone thinner than you.
That fat, skinny, average, healthy, are all just adjectives.
That sometimes you slip up and sometimes that slip up goes on a little too long. 
Recovery is remembering that you have a disorder that you are not a disorder.
That disorders can fade, wounds can heal, and scars will never be beautiful.
That you’ll never forget all of the acronyms but you can forget how they feel on your skin
in your throat
on your taste buds.
Recovery is learning how to feel without fear.
Recovery is rebuilding the bridges you burned by
climbing down into the deepest crevasse and building supports for that bridge.
Recovery is taking that bridge kicking and screaming, walking across, running back the other way. 
Recovery is not easy. In fact, it’s a lot harder than dying and
that’s why it’s worth it.

Recovery is a state of being.
I was asked to write about recovery by nc bradford (via


  1. Beautifully written, thank you for this Izzy. You are, as ever, an inspiration. S. x

    1. I didn't write this, but I thought it was important to share :)

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    1. No I didn't, the source is there :)