Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, December 31, 2015

Lookback 2015: October, November, December

And the last post in my lookback 2015. October, November, December. Some nice moments and memories though feels like these months have mostly been bleak, but there is something positive everyday i guess!! Quite a lot of photos have been lost these months due to different reasons so might have forgotten some nice memories or things i did... i actually dont have so great memory, so thats why i like having pictures and things because i dont always remember things right away, but if i see a picture from a certain time then i can remember how i felt and what we were doing and even things we said just from a picture!¨

As i have lost so many pictures from these past 3 months and my pictures are all in one folder (i.e usually i put them into dates so i know which date and month each picture is from - when i save them on my memory card. But as that is not the case with these months, the photos will just be highlights from the past 3 months and might not be in the right order!)

 October, November, December

Went for lunch with my mum!! Love vegetarian buffets.

My boyfriend wanted to try making his own fire!! So we headed into the forest and i was skeptical and didnt think it would work, but he made a fire and had it under control and we grilled chicken sausages and sat freezing cold, hahaha.

 Movie/serie snacks,
Pancake stacks for the win! When i began liking small pancakes instead of making the larger ones.

Some random - wearing all black - selfie.

The first time - ever - that i actually made potatoes for myself to eat, because i wanted them. Ever since 2012 and 2 years of being made to eat potatoes almost twice daily i couldnt stand potatoes, i could eat sweet potatoe but normal potatoe in any format i didnt like or want to eat. Though of course i ate if my family made it or it was part of a meal, but i never actually made potatoes for myself. But i was craving potatoe wedges and i made them and loved them... and since then i have eaten potatoes several times a week compared to when i ate potatoes only a few times a year. (It wasnt a fear food, i could eat them no problem but i didnt like them or crave them. And btw, potatoes are a great source of carbs and energy :):) )

Fruit and blogging, typical part of my life.

My last race for the year and also i finished the running tournament i was doing!! So i got a diploma, roses and some alcoholfree "wine" :)

Some random gym selfie.

Morning walks were - and are- my form of therapy and it doesnt hurt when its amazing scenery as well.

I began my 4 week crossfit course (where i did 2 lessons a week) and i learnt so much and had so much fun!! Also realised that working out in the evenings wasnt so bad, i actually did have energy!

Got my first spraytan, and at first felt like a gingerbread man!!

After an especially sad few days i went for lunch with my mum!! (Hahah, ive realised just how often i have went out for lunch with my mum. But its nice... i mean we only go if we can afford to eat out, but it is a nice way to spend time with my mum)

My form of therapy.

Went for Sunday brunch with my boyfriend, and i remember how i overestimated my stomach capacity.

I found new flavoured oreo cookies!

My 9 week maths course began and i realised how tough it was, and if i wasnt working out or sleeping i was studying.

Went for a job interview. Which i didnt get as they wanted me to be in Stockholm so that i could be at the office a few times a week, but as i told them that i might move if i get into university then they didnt want to give me a long term job if i could only be at the office for 2 or 3 months before leaving. So i completely understand how they made their choice, but i got the experience of going to a job interview, and i did get a few other things out of that interview!!

Went to a spa with my mum and sister.

Got a lovely package from a lovely reader - who i then also got to meet when she was in Stockholm for the day. Also got food pacakges from Ireland, England, Australia, Czech Republic etc 
I wanted to do more food swaps though as my computer broke and during the month of December is never good, so havent had the economy to do anymore :(

My love for potatoes grew!!

Lots and lots of maths studying.

Went to see the new James Bond film with my boyfriend and his family.

Did another Demo for True T at the new mall that opened in Stockholm. Its strange but i really love doing that type of work and hope that i can continue to do it even when i move for university.

After a long day of standing up and being social during the Demo i bought myself a fro yo.

Another lunch and dessert at my favourite restaurant with my mum.

I bought myself and my sister brunch!

Birthday dress shopping... or well, New Years eve dress shopping!

Cross fit!!!

 Worked 2 days at the fitness festival and i had such a good time. So many people and constantly had someone to talk to or things to do but i enjoyed it alot!!

Brunch with my family for my birthday!!!

Birthday celebrations and a rainbow cake... which didnt turn out to look so good but was super tasty!!

On the day of my birthday i went for lunch (again!) with my mum, and even more cake is necessary!!

Birthday celebrations for my aunt so i made some dessert.

Even more studying and hair pulling as i was preparing for my national maths test. So much stress and anxiety but i managed to pass my course which i actually found surprising. I am good at maths but i dont necessarily enjoy it and when i have 500 other things in my mind it is hard to focus on maths, but i passed and got through the course and hopefully no more hard maths like that again, hahah.

Bought myself and my family donuts as i was craving one and felt i needed to celebrate after my 5 hour maths exam. First donut in several years as well.

Decided to try making donuts myself, and actually.... my home made ones tasted better!!!

And suddenly all the energy was gone and the year began to take its toll on me.... which you can see in this selfie.

Christmas preperations!

Christmas day and celebrations with my family!!

And this sums up my 2015.  Ups and downs, changes and non changes. Highs and lows.

I am focused on a new year, new changes and hopefullly more positives than negatives, but life is what i make it. And if i have a positve outlook on life and make the best of things then things will be positive and workout!!!

I wish you all a positive new year and remember alot can change and happen in 365 days. But take each day and make it the best possible!!! 

1 comment:

  1. Loved meeting you :) I dont know what i would've done without your help that day. I would've been so lost! Haha.
    I hope you have a wonderful New Years Eve and that 2016 will be an awesome year for you! <3