Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Wednesday, December 23, 2015

I don't want to recover because. ....

Your eating disorder will always give you reasons why you cant or shouldnt recover. That little voice in your head that says, it's too hard, you can't, there is no point... why change when you like life the way it is?

First thing is first - if you like things the way they are... there would be no thoughts of change. If you dream about how things could be different, you imagine what life would be like to be healthy and not have an eating disorder. Then DONT let that voice in your head convince you that you dont need to change or that you are happy where you are in life? Because obviously you arent if you are wishing and wandering for things to change. But its not enough to think, you need to act.

Yes, recovery is hard. Yes its tough, yes you might relapse. Yes you might want to give up. But it is worth it. You need to stop listening to that voice in your head that tries to tell you that you arent sick, you arent sick enough, you arent skinny enough, you dont need help, you dont need to recover etc because that voice is lying to you. Its that voice that will eventually lead to your death if you keep listening to it.
So fight against that voice. There is so much more to life.

You DONT and SHOULDNT want to be sick. Your aim should not be to be the sickest person or the skinniest person. What do you achieve from that? Not health or happiness anyway, all you are doing is throwing away your life. You have one life, so why not live it? Live a life you can truly enjoy and be proud over.

Stop giving yourself reasons why you shouldnt or cant recover, instead give yourself 99 reasons every morning why you can and should recover. Because trust me, for each reason why you cant or shouldnt recover (that your ED tries to whisper to you), there are 5 reasons why you SHOULD and CAN recover. So find those reasons and remind yourself of them everyday.

Just incase you needed a head start on that list of reasons to recover.


  1. Hi Izzy :) I was wondering if you ever felt extremely hungry even though you're full? I can eat a lot and my stomach will be extended and everything and saying "ok I'm full" but then I still get hunger pains right after or a few minutes later. I used to only be able to eat a little but then would be hungry a few hours later and I didn't mind that (before my ed). But now it's just a constant hunger all the time and I have no idea how to be full. I feel like I eat enough and stuff but sometimes when I give in to my hunger and eat more I begin to feel sick. I eat tons of protein and fiber and stuff that's supposed to make you feel full but it doesn't work. I also drink an absurd amount of water so it can't be dehydration. I'm not on a meal plan and am currently trying to maintain my weight. I just don't like feeling this way and don't know how to not feel hungry.

  2. Oh and I forgot to say but I also feel lightheaded and just spacey a lot even though I just ate. It's kind of like the way your head feels when you need to eat but I get it after and don't know whether I should eat again or not.

  3. There are always reasons to recover.. if one actually thinks about it.

    Keep thinking and you'll find a reason :) X

  4. I`d be interested to hear your view point on this because an hour or so after I`ve drank an Ensure drink I come over all shakey and trembly - even my hands and legs feel shakey. Its just like you feel when you desperately need to eat, but I haven't long done so so it can`t be hunger. To stop the symptoms and to stop feeling light headed and dizzy I have to eat something sweet, then I am ok again.
    Its mystified me and put me off drinking the Ensures. Could it be that they are fairly high in sugar and my body isn't dealing with it?