Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Feeling like you need to look a way based on your stereotype/how people know you

I think this is kind of an important post for me to make..... now you start wondering what it may be. Hahha.

Maybe not the best start to this post, but anyway. So yesterday I was going swimming with my friends and beforehand - I am not proud to admit this - I began thinking. ... I hope I don't look bloated. I am the exercise and gym rat. The "fit" friend, and well I wanted to live up to that. I hoped that I looked "fit"... and I feel embarrassed writing this. Because these types of thoughts are the ones I tell people to get rid of, but I'm writing this to show that sometimes silly thoughts can pop up. Because really. .... what a stupid thought that was. I look the way I look. I have a  functioning and healthy body. Whether I look lean, muscular or fit.... who cares? My friends know how I look and they wouldn't judge me anyway just like I don't judge them. And then I realised who cares if my stomach bloats, I never care about it usually and I look the way I look. And then I suddenly felt better. And I am writing this post because it can be important to realise that you are more than that "stereotype" or name you have.

It can be so hard to recover when you are known as the sick person or the one who never eats. Then suddenly eating infront of people, gaining weight and no longer being fhe sick person can be tough.  But you are so much more than that.

Just like I am so much more than the "gym rat or fit girl". But I am me, the happy and positive girl. The creative and goofy but silent girl. My body does not define me just like yours does not define you. 

You are NOT the sick person, but you are you. Your personality, your hobbies and interests and who you DECIDE to be. Realise that you are more than your body and your illness, show to people who you really are and let people see YOU. Not the illness. ... and know that your body can change, that is ok. If you have true friends or a true partner they won't care about those things! !

I hope this post can inspire you. I did get those weird thoughts yesterday but absaloutly nothing I acted upon and once I thought rationally I felt so much better and that is what you need to do as well. 
Think rationally and don't care about what others think!!


  1. Thank you, Izzy! This came at a really good time for me.

  2. Hi Izzy!

    I wanted to ask you about Freelee the banana girl on you tube, and the raw vegan diet. What do you think about it? A want to be vegan for save the animals, but I am just 14, and recovered from anorexia a few months ago, and i don't have boobs yet, and i need to grow, and Im afraid i won't if I am eating veagan. What do you think about it?

  3. Sometimes this happens to me too- I can be doing so well then an innocent comment from someone who doesn't know about my problems will shake me. Commenting on how light I am, how slight, or how petite....I feel like I'm being praised, and then wonder if I will be letting myself down if I'm no long that " light, slim" person.