Friday evening and only 6 days until Christmas eve! So far we don't have a Christmas tree... but I think we are buying one tomorrow? A bit of Christmas feeling anyway! ! I also want to make gingerbread men, sugared almonds and saffron buns again!!! Christmas baking is one of the best things about Christmas! And I'm also trying to convince my mum to take me out to a Christmas buffet lunch! According to me you can never have too much Christmas food! I love the Christmas food in Sweden, which many people in my age find strange. ... but I didn't grow up eating the typical swedish Christmas food so for me... its still new. I mean it's only really been 3 years (I. E 3rd year now that I actually enjoy Christmas food!)
Today I haven't spent much time online and that is mostly due to the fact that I've wanted to turn my phone onto flight mode or just throw my phone away to avoid a certain conversation. Basically the doctor wanted to admit me into hospital with IV antibiotics.... and well I refused. Because that is an absaloute nightmare for me. so instead I was told to think it over and they would call me today...... and my answer was still no. I mean, spend Christmas, my mum's birthday and new years in hospital? I think not. .... so after a while of trying to get them to agree we finally agreed that I go back at the start of January and if things aren't better I need IV antibiotics :/ usch.... but there might be a chance that I can do it while at home. But that means being a prisoner in my own home for 10-14 or more days :/ but better than hospital. ... infact they will quite literally have to knock me out or drag me there screaming and kicking before I willingly allow myself to be admitted to hospital. It's a nightmare of mine.
So for now i can atleast enjoy the holidays but focus on lots of medication, lots of cardio (infact since ive stopped running or doing HIIT my lungs and cf health has decreased as well.... so time to get back into!) and staying away from areas with lots of people and preferably little public transport to minimize getting bacteria or infections.... I mean I'm not complaining about that. Now I have a legit reason to be driven everywhere,hahah XD
To get my mind off things luckily we had plans to go to my step dad's Mums place where we drank coffee, ate a delicious dinner and I even got my hair cut as P's mum is a hairdresser, so now I have fresh hair again and it's and least manageable! !! XD
Now it's after dinner coffee before we head home :) :)
I hope you all have a lovely weekend. And I'm going to try my best wuth my blog and answering comments but I just feel quite overwhelmed with everything and struggling with both physical health and mental health..... but soon I'll be back to top form, I know it... or I hope for it anyway!!!