Hope you don`t mind me asking but do you think it was due to your parents making you eat so much when you didn't want it that contributed to you developing anorexia?
Don't worry I don't mind you asking. No I don't think it had so much affect on me developing anorexia. It might have had some effect as I began to realise that others weren't being told to eat, if anything the people around me and friends and such were being told to eat less from their parents (which is just as bad really). When I began to develop my eating problems I did get into arguments with my parents and told them that I didn't want to be treated differently. If there was a last piece of something I didn't want it unless I actively said I wanted it. And I told them to stop telling me to eat more and they did stop somewhat which I guess just made it easier for me to not eat.
But my eating disorder was a way of controlling life which seemed so chaotic at the time. I had no control over my life and needed something to hold onto, something I could control. My eating disorder didn't develop from me wanting to eat less or to lose weight. But it was me wanting to be normal, I stopped taking my medication and wanted to be treated normally which just made me more ill. I can't say exactly how or why my eating disorder developed but I know it had to do with wanting control and having low self esteem. And then as the anxiety and guilt around food and body image grew, then it was just easier for me to not eat rather than to face the guilt or anxiety.