Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Todays mood and 2 meals including a questbar pizza

Hello :)

What a weird and "heavy" day so far and its only 3.30pm. It's been one of those days where you just want to break down and cry every 5 minutes. When your head feels heav with thoughts and you cant seem to focus on anything because your mind just wanders. Today i have basically had to keep the tears from falling and keep myself from falling apart.

To cheer myself up i finally went to the store and bought two things i have been craving like crazy... sweet potatoe and avocados!! So for lunch i made a whole load of roasted carrots, potatoes and sweet potatoe so they will last a few dinners and lunches now and also some ripe avocados so i can eat guacamole for days!!

I also want to comment about the fact that just a few years ago i would not have been able to eat a meal like this. 1) It would have been too many carbs and 2) avocados scared me because of the healthy fat content but also 3) where is the protein i would have thought. My meals were based on protein and vegetables and some small carb source if i even ate them. Never did i think that i would freely eat just root vegetables and avocado for lunch. But it was soo good and exactly what my body was craving and wanting. Infact roast vegetables has basically been my lunches and dinners the past while as it is so easy to make and also so delicious. :)

I also wanted to add, yesterday i made a questbar pizza!! Sounds strange, i dont think i can call it a pizza.. but oh well. Basically microwave a questbar (I used a smores one), then roll it out and put into the oven for a few minutes, then let it cool down and become "hard" and then top with whatever. I used quark, peanut butter and berries. This was my little pre dinner snack... easy to make and doesnt take so long time either. 

One thing i have wondered over though is how some people can feel full after eating one questbar? One of the reasons i dont buy questbars anymore is 1) they are expensive and 2) when i do eat them i need to eat like 3 to get full and they disappear far too quickly then so it isnt very economical. But a questbar isnt enogh for a meal or a snack, unless its like a morning snack between breakfast and lunch... but i would not say that a questbar is enough for an afternoon snack.. instead have one as desssert after lunch or dinner and eat a snack as well :) 

Soo much food talk in this post... oh well, you just have to accept that.
Now its time to sit down and get a few hours of maths done.