Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, November 9, 2015

Somethings are better left unsaid

Good morning :)

Sometimes i feel like if i have nothing positive to say it is better to not say anything at all. And that was the case yesterday. Not a very good day mentally... it was rainy and grey and that affects my mood immensely so it was just a rough day and i didn't have so much positivity or inspiration to share so i decided to just not share anything at all. I know some of you don't mind me writing my thoughts and how i am feeling, but i feel like it would just be triggering to some and that isn't fair. Also i want this place to be positive... not fake positive, but inspiring and positive. S sometimes i might write how i am feeling/thinking but for the most part i want to keep it to myself if it isnt something positive and worth sharing.

I also want to apologise for not being so active in the comments section/replying. i haven't had the time for it. Though i will try get around to it sometime, just recomment cmments if i miss them :)

Onto other things! I am not going to get caught up in yesterdays thoughts and feelings because today is a new day and a new week. (Think, you can say the phrase it's a new week 52 times in a year... and by the end of this year i have most probably written it that often as well XD) I don't hate Mondays even  if it means school, though i wouldn't say i love Mondays either... i mean the weekend is pretty awesome! And this weekend i have a whole bunch of stuff planned as well as the weekend after that and the weekend after that XD I like having things planned and being busy even if it leads to stress at times! 

Now it's time for breakfast, coffee, get ready and go!!

Have a lovely Monday everyone :)


  1. Hi!
    I really hope this week goes better and that you feel better <3

    What kind of comments do you like the most? What do you want us, your readers to comment? What would you like to read about?

    Have a good monday!

    1. Thank you :) Ohh well I enjoy reading what people have to say... about their day or something positive or even a joke. Or if you have an opinion about what I wrote or a comment /suggestion etc :) having my readers interact and comment is a fun part about blogging! Thank you and you too.

  2. I know what you mean about wanting to keep things positive! I feel the same about my space on the internet! I get a bit down with the gloomy weather too, though. It is the worst. Hope you're feeling a bit better today love :) Hope you have a good start to the week!

    1. Thank you! It's tough, but I know it will get better :) I hope you have a great week and your studies (if you are studying at the moment?) Go well :)

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  4. I understand that you want to keep your blog positive. But on the other hand i was quite shocked when you first talked about your struggle with depression, i would have never thought that. If you would not have talked about this i would be still believing that you are this happy and heathy girl who is having the time of her life.

    1. Well I plan to change my bio.... I just haven't gotten around to it. I don't want to write so much about it as I don't want to trigger people but also that my depression doesn't have anything to do with an eating disorder and I don't really want people to think. .. oh ill recover but still be depressed. I don't want this place to be dark.and gloomy as that won't help anyone.

  5. I read somewhere, can`t remember where, that depression often follows recovery from an eating disorder in the form of filling the void that was once filled by the ed. I can get that, its like you`ve had such a time consuming illness for so long that when it is no longer there mentally you`re at a loss. could be some truth in it, I don`t know. what do you think?

  6. (Picking up from Carol's comment...) I've also wondered a bit about the relationship between ED and depression. I know that Izzy's problems are not to do with her relationship to food or body any more, and I'm not one of those who doubts or denigrates the extraordinary gift and achievement of recovery (Izzy you are brilliant!), but I'd thought that there is ongoing research into the relationship between EDs and depression, and I do wonder whether at some level there is a connection, though I don't know what. I am not a professional, I had an ED and the professionals warned me about depression, and I didn't pay any attention... till I experienced it. .... I know that not all people who recover from EDs end up with recurrent episodes of depression, but I do wonder whether there is a link in some cases? Deep down, I mean?? Or maybe that isn't a helpful train of reflection, I don't know -- what do you think?

  7. Maybe people who get an eating disorder are often very sensitive. And sensitive people often suffer from depression, too. But Izzy, I hope you'll look for someone who can support you, so that you can be happy again. Talking to someone isn't always bad and even if it didnt help you at mandoo ... you are older now and in a different situation. You could try :) enjoy your evening!

  8. Sending you kind thoughts, Izzy. I'm always here if you need someone to chat with.