Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Sunday, November 15, 2015

Part of recovery is about being honest with yourself

When you are suffering with an eating disorder it is easy to become a bit of a manipulative liar. Lying becomes a part of daily life and you begin to believe your own lies as well. You think you dont like food because for so long you have lied to yourself and convinced yourself that you dont like certain foods. You keep trying to tell yourself that you are happy, that this is life and that recovery won't make you feel better. You lie to yourself and to others, but recovery is a time to be honest with yourself, because deep inside you know the truth whether you want to believe it or admit it.

You need to think about why you do things and be honest to yourself about why you do them. That is where the recovery process begins, admitting that things you do are because of sick thoughts or habits. Such as for those who eat a vegan diet purely because of restriction or to have a reason why they dont eat certain foods. Being a vegan isnt wrong but you need to be honest about why you are eating a certain way.... is it because you want control and are scared of eating the other food or is it because you believe in the ethics and morals of a vegan?

It's important when it comes to exercise to also be honest with yourself. Why do you do it, do you enjoy it? Do you allow your body rest when it needs it?

Being honest with yourself is very important and progress and change as well as happiness comes from knowing yourself and being honest with yourself. Because you can trick and fool people for years, but the joke is on you because it is you who suffers and deals with the consequences. And in the end, no matter how warped your thoughts are, the truth is inside of you.

For example if someone asks you if you want the chocolate cake or the cinnamon bun and you say you dont care and then you get the cinnamon bun and feel this sort of sadness (or what to say) and you realise that actually you wanted the chocolate cake. It is a bit like that... even if you dont say the truth, you know it inside  and it is time to start listening to that truth and also following its guidance.

It is hard to make the right progress is you are lying to yourself and to others.  In the end you already know what is best for you, you just need to dare to listen and try to follow that inside guidance.


  1. I hope you are being honest with yourself Izzy!! <3

  2. I am :) I know how important it is to be honest to yourself!