Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, November 2, 2015

Dont accept your bad habits

There can come a time when you are sick when you just accept your behaviour. You just accept that that is how you will always live your life. That you will always live your life with guilt, with fear. That you will never be able to say yes to food offered, never be able to eat certain food without compensating, or never be able to eat food without purging.... you just accept. But that is not how it should be, you shouldnt accept the bad and ED behaviours. You should instead get angry, get angry that you are allowing your eating disorder to control you so much that you can't even live life normally. You should not accept any of the ED behaviour and you shouldnt let it become normal and ok... because eating disorder behaviour is never ok. Purging just once (when it isnt due to stomach illness) or restricting to compensate just once or losing all control and binging just once is not ok. 

Of course when these types of behaviours are an everyday thing its not so easy to break the cycle no matter how much you wish you could change. But the first thing to realise is that you need to want to change, because if you accept how things are then you arent willing for change, you arent doing anything to make a change either. You need to want to make a change and realise that it is possible to make a change and get rid of those habits, as long as you go against your eating disorder and do something to get rid of those habits. Dont accept that you will always be sick, even if it feels tough you cant give up. The tough times make you stronger, but then you have to get through the tough times. 

So now think over your behaviour and remind yourself that those that are destructive and negative... you need to get rid of those, even if it doesnt feel possible or easy. It is possible, even if it may not be easy. It is about standing against the fear and your eating disorder. Facing your fears  and daring to make a change, its the only way for change to happen.

Thist is just a reminder to keep you focused on recovery and to not just "allow" your eating disorder habits to control you, instead do something to change them!! And never think that using a behaviour just once is ok... because once is not always once.

1 comment:

  1. So much this. I grew comfortable in my eating disorder. Why make a change if I was content? But truthfully, I was miserable. Just because I was comfortable in my misery does not mean I should stay in it.