Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Sunday, November 22, 2015

Crossfit - accepting that im bad at something and learning to take things slow

Today's lessons.

I may not be as good at something as I want to be but that doesn't mean I should give up and cry. And also learning to take things slowly,  the workouts aren't so intense or long and I need to accept that. Right now it's just the beginning and an 8 minute workout is enough.

Today the lesson was focused on squats so we practised a little on body weight squats and doing the different types of squats. I know that because of my hip, lower back problems and knees squats really aren't my thing and I don't do back squats at all. It's only the past months I've added in front squats and they work ok. Also my ankles aren't very mobile or flexible so all that adds up to not so good squats and unfortunately I am terrible at doing things I'm not good at so I haven't practised squats or getting better at them or mobility.  Anyway when I was telling the coach that I had knee and lower back problems it felt like I was just making excuses and in all honesty he wasn't so interested either. So I just had to laugh and add in, "I've just got to practice more" because that is exactly what I have to do. Accept that I am bad at squats and I have my reasons for it but I can also do more flexibility and mobility work to make myself better at them. At times my knees or back do say stop but it's also the fact that I don't like doing things I'm bad at. So I just had to take his feedback and remind myself that I amnt 11 years old where I want to cry because I get critique and my mind tries to tell me I am awful and terrible and bad at everything.  I know that his critique is because I needed to fix a small thing and work on mobility and he is helping me.

To start off the workout we did lots of foam rolling and ouch.... I have a foam roller at home but I can count on one hand the amount of times I've used it this year XD  but it's definitely something I am going to do more of. My whole body was shaking from holding myself in certain positions.

And to finish off we did a WOD. A very simple one which was 5 rounds of:

5 push ups
10 burpees
20 air squats

And that was timed so in a few lessons time we will do the same workout and see if we improved!

So far I think crossfit is alot of fun but very intense and it's a good way to shock my body and do something different, really push myself and not just do the same thing over and over. But I also need to accept that I amnt good at everything, I am just human and I need to be ok with not being good at things.  That just means I can practise and get better,  have some goals for myself. For the next few weeks I am going to focus alot on stretch and mobility,  lots of foam rolling and maybe doing 2 or 3 full or half body workouts and 1-2 stretch and mobility workouts. Not so much separate muscle groups as I've done that for so many years now focusing on other things!! :)

Now im on my way home and time for some lunch and an hour or so of maths!! :)


  1. Its always hard and uncomfortable when you have to do something you could be better at in front of others. But its important to remember that everyone has their struggles, someone is super good at something and extremely bad at other stuff. Like, I am genetically very strong, but i am also extremely stiff and not flexible at all. I have to put in a lot of effort to be able to bend my body so I can lift with right technique. I know i just have to stretch and foam roll a lot to get better, even though its boring. every night i spend about 1 hour stretching and rolling and it really has helped. my mobility is sooooo much better. My tips is to make a bowl of snack or something good (i usually make yoghurt with lots of toppings etc) which i eat while stretching and rolling. good food + series/tv shows = less boring foam rolling! Haha :)
    Hope you have had a good weekend and that crossfit just gets more and more fun! :)

    1. Thank you :) And eating snacks while stretching/foam rolling doesnt sound like a bad idea :) Though if i watch series or something at the same time i would just get distracted... maybe having a delicious snack as a treat afterwards! I hope you have a great week :)

  2. What is in the bowl?

    1. Questbar pufffs or... questbar cereal, hahha! We had no cereal/muslie or yoghurt at home so i got creative and made questbar puffs and added milk :)

  3. Hope u have a lovely afternoon/ evening Izzy :) Xx

    1. Thank you :) I hope you have a lovely week :)

  4. omg like way too much exercise honey!

    1. what do you mean too much? i think she knows her body better than you and knows how much is too much ??

    2. Its not too much exercise for me :) If you are commenting about the 2-3 full/half body workouts and stretch and mobility, that isnt too much. It would be less than i am doing now, but i think the change is good and focusing more on improvement in certain areas :)