Or well i woke up at 3am and was wide awake and super thirsty as well as super hungry. So after drinking almost 2l of water at once (is that even healthy ?) i tried to go back to sleep but my stomach was rumbling too much so it was just to get something to eat and once i had eaten something i was still too awake, so it was just to put on a series and accept the fact that my day would start at 3am. But by 5.30am i was feeling tired and i figured i could sleep until 7am and then get up and start my day for real. But i slept through the 4 alarms i had on and even when my sister tried to wake me i just rolled over and told her i didnt need to get up, which is true i didnt... but i ended up waking at 9am, and just feeling disorientated. I hate getting up after 7 or 8am because then i never have enough time for everything.. those 1-2 hours make a difference in my day as they are usually the hours while i can blog for the day and then the rest of the day i have other things to do.
My inital plan was to study maths today, but that just didnt happen at all. It took me 3 hours to even leave the house and that was just to take Daisy for a short walk and eventually i got myself organized and ready and left the house as i had a few things to do as well as needed to buy some type of "professional interview clothes" as i have an interview tomorrow and 80% of the clothes i have are workout clothes and the rest are just black tank tops, black skirts and jeans that are too big or too small.... so i felt that something a little more formal was necessary. Despite hating clothes shopping and avoiding it at all costs as well as i find it hard to buy stuff for myself (once again, i dont feel worthy) i did find a few items which were much needed and work well for an interview.
Eventually, 5 hours later i was home again and feeling tired and feeling guilty as i hadnt gotten any maths done but I am reminding myself that there is time for that this weekend!
For the rest of the evening i am focusing on positive thoughts and making this evening alot better so that the day can end on a positive note and with some positive thoughts!! There is always a choice and i want to choose to be positive and not let the bad thoughts bring me down, in the end itsnot worth it and just makes me feel like absaloute crap. But instead focus on the positive things which can make me feel better :)
Also want to point out to everyone... Stop the hating. If you have nothing nice to say, dont say anything at all. I want to keep this place a positive place! So please if you want to comment negativity, think twice as it really isnt necessary here. Sometimes you need to take your frustration and anger out somewhere else ;) Just a little tip.