Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
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Thursday, October 8, 2015
When all days become chill days
Waking up this morning was not easy at all, but somehow I still woke up before 8am (usually wake between 6-8am, buy days like today when it felt impossible to open my eyes I usually wake around 9am).
Today's activities was a short gym session and some walking as cardio is needed at the moment for my lungs. It's not fun to wake up and start coughing blood (this will continue for the rest of the day). Don't worry, it's not serious, it's just been a little harder to breathe so alot of stress on my lungs and most likely a capillary or blood vessels or something has broken in my lungs. It's happened before so I'm not so worried, it's only when it continues for several days that it can be something serious. But just the fact that I cough up blood, it does take a mental toll even if physically it's not so bad as it sounds. But I definitely need to add running to my schedule again, or intervals anyway. This is to keep my lungs healthy. Also... I have my final race for the year on Saturday. Am I excited? Unfortunately not... breathing is hard and I haven't done alot of running, not even short running sessions so not sure how it will go. In all honesty, I am just running the race because I have paid for it and it's the last one in the running tour I am doing. But I am not so excited for it, just kind of want it over with. :/ but I am going to make sure to eat lots today and tomorrow as I want to have 200% energy on Saturday, so loading up with energy these 2 days and that will mean atleast I have energy even if I might not feel 100% motivated to run.
So what are my plans for the rest of the day? Nothing. ... movies, my bed, food. That is what I want and need at the moment. Lots of medication as well to help my lungs and breathing and hopefully it won't affect me too much on Saturday.
On a sidenote, recently i have been eating alot more vegetarian meals. Mostly because i have been lazy - it is alot easier to just eat beans, tofu and vegetables or eat some quorn, vegetables and chickpeas rather than making chicken or fish. But also i havent craved fish or meat. The only reason i eat chicken, fish etc is because i like it and have craved it, but now i dont crave it at all and so why not eat lots of other vegetarian foods and options then, its soo good!
So todays lunch was roasted vegetables, a whole carton of chickpeas, peanut butter (which was unsalted and not so good XD) and drinking lemon BCAA's (nice to drink something other than water sometimes!)
I hope you all have a good day :) take care of yourselves (autocorrect turned that into, take care of your elf. Haha) and make today a good day!