Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, October 8, 2015

When all days become chill days

Waking up this morning was not easy at all, but somehow I still woke up before 8am (usually wake between 6-8am, buy days like today when it felt impossible to open my eyes I usually wake around 9am).

Today's activities was  a short gym session and some walking as cardio is needed at the moment for my lungs. It's not fun to wake up and start coughing blood (this will continue for the rest of the day). Don't worry, it's not serious, it's just been a little harder to breathe so alot of stress on my lungs and most likely a capillary or blood vessels or something has broken in my lungs.  It's happened before so I'm not so worried, it's only when it continues for several days that it can be something serious.  But just the fact that I cough up blood, it does take a mental toll even if physically it's not so bad as it sounds. But I definitely need to add running to my schedule again, or intervals anyway. This is to keep my lungs healthy.  Also... I have my final race for the year on Saturday.  Am I excited? Unfortunately not... breathing is hard and I haven't done alot of running,  not even short running sessions so not sure how it will go. In all honesty, I am just running the race because I have paid for it and it's the last one in the running tour I am doing. But I am not so excited for it, just kind of want it over with. :/ but I am going to make sure to eat lots today and tomorrow as I want to have 200% energy on Saturday,  so loading up with energy these 2 days and that will mean atleast I have energy even if I might not feel 100% motivated to run.

So what are my plans for the rest of the day? Nothing. ... movies, my bed, food. That is what I want and need at the moment. Lots of medication as well to help my lungs and breathing and hopefully it won't affect me too much on Saturday.

On a sidenote, recently i have been eating alot more vegetarian meals. Mostly because i have been lazy - it is alot easier to just eat beans, tofu and vegetables or eat some quorn, vegetables and chickpeas rather than making chicken or fish. But also i havent craved fish or meat. The only reason i eat chicken, fish etc is because i like it and have craved it, but now i dont crave it at all and so why not eat lots of other vegetarian foods and options then, its soo good!

So todays lunch was roasted vegetables, a whole carton of chickpeas, peanut butter (which was unsalted and not so good XD) and drinking lemon BCAA's (nice to drink something other than water sometimes!)

I hope you all have a good day :) take care of yourselves (autocorrect turned that into, take care of your elf. Haha) and make today a good day!


  1. Have you ever taken medication for your depression?

    1. No, and I don't plan to either. This is just my personal choice but I am sure it can help others.

  2. Hur länge och hur varmt lagade du grönsakerna? Så gott vill göra i morgon! Du äger tjejen! Keep it up!!!

    1. Vet inte riktigt hur länga, mellan 20-30 minuter tror jag, på 200 :)

  3. do you have to pre boil the veg before you stick it in the oven or does it go in raw?