Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Saturday, October 10, 2015

What is healthy to you - Guest post

One of my friends and readers, Tonje, wrote a very good post about health. Sometimes it is good to hear about other peoples views on health and what they see as healthy, so below is her guest post. Can also be found on her blog HERE

Today it seems like many people thinks health is defined by only eating veggies, a little fruit, chicken, cod and maybe some healthy fats. All other form for carbs, meat and fats are the devil, and if you are really going to enjoy yourself you might eat some extra fruit or buy some sugar free, fat free, guilt free treat. Still you expect to kick ass at your workouts every day, be a good student and/or employee, girlfriend/boyfriend and have a social life. Truth is that you find yourself exhausted and you no longer associate workouts with energy and enjoyment. And the thought of being social is exhausting in itself. You stress so much about being healthy and active that the stress itself makes you unhealthy and sick. You forget that being active require A LOT of food and rest and that working out is supposed to be a tiny part of your life and not life consuming. We are human, not machines. We NEED to be maintained and refilled.  A stressed, depressed, malnourished and overworked body will never look healthy or 'fit' and the soul it carries will never be happy and content. 
You might eat adequate of food to not be underweight, but that doesn't mean you're not malnourished. 

So if you think that the only way to health and happiness is a fat free, sugar free and overly active life style I am sorry to say that your goals will never be reached. And body wise: the more malnourished and stressed you are, the more you will hate how you look. Evil cycle, I know.  
But hey, there's always hope! Once you manage to turn your focus around and realize that no food is dangerous and that over exercising only makes you exhausted and less fit you will also experience the joy in life. Your stress levels will sink, your mood will rise, and you will glow and be happy with yourself. When you learn to listen to your body and the signals it gives you, you will find a balance in life that makes you want to get out of bed every day! I'm not saying it is easy. Trust me, I know how hard it can be. I'm simply saying that with hard work and determination anything is possible. 
You body is not a calculator and you will never know exactly how much energy you need in a day. Your focus should be on getting enough energy and nutrients to fill your bodys needs. Food is fuel, without it you won't get anywhere. 

Now, I feel a little hypocritical writing this, because one of my favorite hobbies is to cook healthy food and snacks. But by healthy I don't mean calorie- and fat free. I mean good food that gives my body something. I eat primarily food with a lot of nutrients to have a healthy and happy mind and to be able to be as active as I want to be. I eat well and I eat a lot. I don't count a single calorie, but I listen to my cravings and fuel up with nutritious food. Sometimes I want a brownie or chocolate, most times I make it from scratch and fill it with awesome ingredients to keep my blood sugar stabile and energy long lasting. Sometimes, though, I go to the store and buy sugar-filled chocolate with a bad nutritional value because my body wants and needs the energy and I make sure to get my vitamins and minerals from other sources. I eat tons of fruit and veggies, I eat bread, rice and pasta and I eat meats and dairy. I eat a little bit of everything and I have no no-nos. I have never been happier, stronger or in better shape. I have found a balance and you can too. 
To me only broccoli isn't healthy. To me only burgers aren't healthy. But combine the two and you have health on a plate.

When all is said: if you ever feel that your relationship towards food or exercise is changing, feels forced or makes you stressed, please seek help! It's hard to admit, but if you deep down inside know something isn't right, take action. And never feel embarrassed. It might not be serious yet, but suddenly you are stuck in a hell you can't get out of and that should be avoided at all costs. Life can be so good if you are brave enough to fight for it!