Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Sunday, October 11, 2015

There will never be a perfect time, start where you are.

I know i often say, you need to want to recover. And that is true, in the end to fully recover you need to want it. Not just follow the steps and hope that you recover, because it is about mentally recovering and know that you need to and want to. But sometimes you cant sit around and wait for the perfect time or the right moment. Or to just sit and wait for motivation to slap you in the face or wait to reach rock bottom. Because when it comes to eating disorders or other mental illnesses, sometimes rock bottom is literally rock bottom meaning under the ground. You cant sit and wait to get worse and think... when i reach X weight or in a few weeks time i will recover. Or if you know that you will start treatment so you decide to make sure you spend those weeks not eating as you know when you are in treatment you will have to eat. But that is not how it works... sometimes you just have to start. And find your motivation along the way, but you have to start to recover. Right now make a choice that goes against your eating disorder, even if you dont want to or you feel that its wrong, know that it is a good step. And feeling anxiety means that you have gone against your ED, you have become one bit stronger which is a positive thing.

Start now. Dont wait for better times or the perfect moment. Dont just wait to want to recover, but try recovering and find your motivation and will along the way. You cant keep going until rock bottom, because sometimes rock bottom is too far and not something you can climb back from.

1 comment:

  1. I think that starting is important! But keeping on going during recovery is also an important point :) hard, but it's worth it.
    Izzy, what would you say? I have got a bmi of 18 and no matter how much I eat (on normal days ca 3000 kalories), even if I drink extra supplement drinks ... I don't gain any more weight and stay with with bmi for 4 months now. I would really like to have a few more kilos... it would be healthier, look better and I am not so nearly underweight. My therapist thinks it might be my natural set point ... my doctor sais my body is healthy. I feel uncomfortable with this little weight. What do you think about this?