I say i've relapsed when i was sick, but when i think about it.... i never truly relapsed, because i was equally sick, all the time - though i did get sicker during the time. But i mean, when i was in inpatients, i never got better. There wasnt any improvement with me..... all i did was gain weight because i had to while i was an inpatient, and then as soon as i was home again i lost it all, and that was my plan all along.
So its not like i truly got better, and then fell back again.
But the fact is i did go from inpatient to day patient and then back to inpatient and then day patient and so on.... and i only got sicker and more depressed. But still.... its almost like relapsing? (or maybe not)
But anyway, relapsing is normal unfortunatly.... and it just means you have to fight harder, because when you relapse, the voice in your head gets stronger and you listen to the voice, you become weaker. But instead, you need to become stronger, to fight back.... to know you want to recover, even if the voice in your head tells you that you dont want to recover.
Make a list of all the good things about recovering, and all the bad things about your eating disorder.
And just because you relapse, doesnt mean that you just lie down and accept it... No, you fight back even harder.
Just because you've gone a few days/weeks where you've done things wrong, that doesnt mean you cant turn around and stop it.
I mean you know what you're doing wrong. You make the conscious choice on listening to the voice in your head, its you who decides you'll skip lunch, or workout extra long etc. But its also you who can make the choice to eat ice cream with friends and just deal with the anxiety, or to eat that fear food, or to skip that workout. Its your choice... thats something you need to remember.
You have the choice to change your life.
Recovery is something you choose.
Its always your choice, even if it may not seem like it. I mean there is always the choice whether you cheat with your food/meal plan, or to skip a meal etc.
But it is also your choice to do things right, and know that its you wwho will benefit frmo doing the right thing, but suffer the consequences of doing the wrong thing.
To prevent relapse, know your triggers... and look out for warning signs.
Like when you start feeling anxious around food/certain foods... then you need to start eating those foods, go against the anxiety. When you start cutting out food - My best advice - DONT.
When you start looking at yourself and finding flaws.
When you skip a meal/snack.
When your working out and decide to do even more, even when you're tired.
Forcing yourself to workout even if you dont want to.
Avoiding siutations where there will be food involved
^¨Those are just some warning signs, which if you are a friend/family member of someone who is sick can look out for. Or even if it is you who is trying to recover, if you notice those types of things, then you want to stop with those things.
Here is :