Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
Rainy days - Tuesday update
The above picture pretty much describes what i would have liked to do today... In all honesty all i want to do is "nothing" but that also gives me anxiety because i feel that if i amnt doing anything productive i am wasting time. So relaxing mentally is one thing i need to get better at... i feel that i cant take a break because then i amnt being productive, which is not a good quality of mine. I am a all or nothing type of person. Either i give it 150% or i dont really bother, because what is the point? Though i wish that i could be happy with just doing a little and not feel that i have to do it all at once or spend hours on a task each day before i am happy or can feel a little proud.
But onto my day.... i was going to start my day with a gym session but then when i was out walking my dog - just a short morning walk so she gets to do her business i realised that i would much prefer to be out running, so once i got back home i changed to my running gear and out i went. It felt so good and definitely what i needed, i love the gym but sometimes you just need the forrest and fresh air.
Since then ive tried fixing with a new blog - or a more proffessional blog and after paying loads and not getting it to work and realising that i had to pay even more and things just werent working i decided to give up and luckily i could cancel everything i had already paid for and get refunded. So for now i feel a little disheartened at that fact, but i will do more research and see if i can fix things in another way... and a way that wont cost me half my savings, haha. (not really, but its not cheap either).
I've also had a look through my maths book to see what awaits me.... also tomorrow i have one of those "see what you know and what level you are at" tests, or i think it is tomorrow, otherwise it is on Monday. Never fun with tests and I havent looked at maths or tried doing maths since my national test was over in June.... hahah. So i feel my maths skills are back at 0 and i only know the basics. But hopefully i will remember what i learnt, i like maths and am ok at it so i hope that i wont regret the decision of going to this course!
Now i am going to make a gluten free chocolate cake so my sister can eat it as well :) Not craving chocolate cake, but its a nice surprise for my family and always good to have in the freezer for when guests are over :)