The above picture pretty much describes what i would have liked to do today... In all honesty all i want to do is "nothing" but that also gives me anxiety because i feel that if i amnt doing anything productive i am wasting time. So relaxing mentally is one thing i need to get better at... i feel that i cant take a break because then i amnt being productive, which is not a good quality of mine. I am a all or nothing type of person. Either i give it 150% or i dont really bother, because what is the point? Though i wish that i could be happy with just doing a little and not feel that i have to do it all at once or spend hours on a task each day before i am happy or can feel a little proud.
But onto my day.... i was going to start my day with a gym session but then when i was out walking my dog - just a short morning walk so she gets to do her business i realised that i would much prefer to be out running, so once i got back home i changed to my running gear and out i went. It felt so good and definitely what i needed, i love the gym but sometimes you just need the forrest and fresh air.
Since then ive tried fixing with a new blog - or a more proffessional blog and after paying loads and not getting it to work and realising that i had to pay even more and things just werent working i decided to give up and luckily i could cancel everything i had already paid for and get refunded. So for now i feel a little disheartened at that fact, but i will do more research and see if i can fix things in another way... and a way that wont cost me half my savings, haha. (not really, but its not cheap either).
I've also had a look through my maths book to see what awaits me.... also tomorrow i have one of those "see what you know and what level you are at" tests, or i think it is tomorrow, otherwise it is on Monday. Never fun with tests and I havent looked at maths or tried doing maths since my national test was over in June.... hahah. So i feel my maths skills are back at 0 and i only know the basics. But hopefully i will remember what i learnt, i like maths and am ok at it so i hope that i wont regret the decision of going to this course!
Now i am going to make a gluten free chocolate cake so my sister can eat it as well :) Not craving chocolate cake, but its a nice surprise for my family and always good to have in the freezer for when guests are over :)
Wow!! I saw that picture a few months ago and had to post it on my blog! I love it, it is so what I am like :P Sorry, i get excited about pictures with rain and hot drinks ;)
ReplyDeleteI hope the maths test goes well :) It might be weird to start doing it again, I forgot a bunch of stuff after not doing math for a while, but it comes back to you so don't worry about "losing" it :)
Haha, i love those types of pictures as well :) Thank you, not sure if it is today or next week...but there is no warning to it as the point isnt to study for the test, but i almost wish i did, haha.
DeleteI hope you have a lovely day!
I’m really worried about you Izzy. It seems all you’re doing is going to the gym and then you post about not feeling well. It makes me sad. :( Please take care of yourself. <3 If you need anything, I am always here!
ReplyDeleteDont worry about me :) I go to the gym because its my happy place but also that it is good for me to leave the house.. when i havent had any studies or work there hasnt been much to do. My family and boyfriend all work and all my friends study or work so even if i had the motivation to spend time with them i couldnt until the evenings. I try to not be so negative on here as i want to keep that to myself and not trigger others, so i might try limiting the negatives.... And thank you. I hope you are doing well :)
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