Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Thursday, October 1, 2015

October 2015

And then suddenly it's October 1st and you know that it is officially autumn. Soon  i need to try to find my scarves and gloves because it is definitely getting colder outside. I am still in denial that the summer is over and i keep wanting to put on a pair of shorts and crop top and walk outside as if it isnt below 10 degrees, haha. But somewhere inside i guess i have some common sense that tells me to put on a jacket and jeans. Summer was so short this year as the weather wasnt that great in Sweden, which seems to be a standard for summer here. But because there was never really a "proper" summer, it feels like i am still waiting for summer to arrive and not that it will be christmas in 2 months time.

Hopefully next year will be a better summer, though i have no idea where i will be or what i will be doing next summer, i cant even think about that without feeling a little anxious. I prefer to just focus on the now.

31 days of this month and 31 days of opportunities and chances. 31 days to reach some goals or atleast find structure in my life, so i thought i would write some of my goals for this month.

1) Complete my final race for the year. (Though it might not be my last one as i might run a 5km charity race on the 18th, depending on if i feel like it or not)

2) Make a decision about the course i got in to.

3) Begin practising pull ups and chin ups again - its been weeks since i have done it as i felt that no progress was being made so i got disheartened. But if i want to see progress, then i actually have to practise it!!

4) Keep going for walks/runs outside and dont let the cold or darkness stop me.

5) Keep eating more vegetarian meals. (Recently i have eaten mostly vegetarian meals and it feels so much better, not even craving chicken or fish. Its been alot of beans, tofu and quorn and my stomach thanks me for that. Though i know i will eat meat again because i do like it, but for now i like eating more vegetarian)

6) Begin drinking caffeine free coffee. I love the taste of coffee so that is the main reason i drink it as i dont get an energy kick out of it. But the caffeine still affects the body even if i dont get energy from it. So going to try drink caffeine free so i still get the taste - and can then drink even more of it, without completely stressing my organs from all the caffeine.

7) Read a book. How many months have i said that i will do this? I did start on a Swedish book and got about 50 pages in, but then i gave up as it wasnt exciting and the text was so small that it almost hurt my head to read XD

8) Smile each day and think positive thoughts each day!

Just some of my goals!! Do you have any goals for this month? :)


  1. Hi, i was wondering did you grow taller during the desease? I used to be fat when i was ten and when i turned 12 i started to lose weight. Every thing got back normal when i was about 14 but then things got worse again. Now i m 17 it s been though during this last two years and i haven t had my periods for three years and my boobs(sorry but i m not english and i don t know if there is a nicer word to call them) never grew and i didn t even grow i hight. My question is: do you think that THEY will ever grow? And i m short now 159 cm and since my parents are quite tall they say that i didn t grow because of my behavour. Do you think it s true? Cause lately i ve been bothering my self with this thought cause i suffer for my hight.
    Sorry for the lenght, i hope i didn t bother you and i wish you a nice day!:) and by the way you re really inspiring, i really admire you:):)

    1. I'm going to answer you in a post today or tomorrow :)