Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Monday, October 5, 2015
Monday morning and I had my whole day planned out. I like to plan my days the night before so I know what I'm going to do and when. A sense of control I guess. However I've also learned in time that life doesn't always turn out as planned and you just have to accept that and change your plans.
This was the case for me today. First of all I slept past my alarm - it's so dark in my boyfriends room so it makes it so hard to get up in the mornings. In my room I sleep with the curtains open as it's dark enough during the nights and then in the mornings I will wake naturally around 6/7am and feel awake. or it atleast makes it easier 2/4 times to get up and not just continue sleeping. That's a tip from me, if you struggle to get up in the mornings, then try to 1) go to bed early and maybe buy a light which lights up at the same time as you need to get up. Doesn't always work, but it works better than alarms sometimes.
Anyway, I felt disorientated and drowsy when I woke up. So after spending far too much time just being in my pyjamas I decided to eat breakfast and go to the gym. Once I was ready to leave I checked my pockets to make sure I had everything and first off I couldn't find my keys and second I couldn't find my bus card. After some searching j found my keys but not my bus card. So after searching every pocket and back tracking to where it could be and calling my boyfriend at work I realised that I had lost it somewhere and no idea where. So my last option was to call my mum and ask her to pick me up as I have extra bus cards at home and didn't really feel like buying a new one. My mum couldn't pick me up until after 12 so I decided to download some new music, put on my running gear and go for a long walk. Maybe not how I had planned my day but that's life.
Infact i am glad that my plan for the day was changed because the walk was like therapy for me. Good music, autumn sun and had alot of energy (chocolate was a part of breakfast XD). It was a good start to my day so kind of liked the change, however i still need to fix a bus card because otherwise i will be doing alot of walking everywhere, which isnt a problem but it also means i cant travel anywhere too far.
I'll see how the rest of my day turns out... whether it continues in other ways than planned or whether things would like to go according to my mental plan. Hahah.
(Sunday = snacks and series, haha)