Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, October 26, 2015

Be thankful for the opportunities of a new day

Good morning :)

It's a Monday and a new week and that means first off school time and then after school I am going toa  spa with my mum and sister. Lots of warm water, time to relax, fresh fruit and maybe sushi for dinner. I could definitely use that right now :) So just to get through 4,5 hours of school and then we are heading there. It's a rest day today as well as there is no time to workout, and that is ok by me!

I also want to thank you all for the comments on my previous post. I did not expect any comments at all as that wasnt the purpose of the post, more that i wanted to try to express some of my thoughts. But it means so much to me that you care and offer your support and advice, it really does warm my heart. Like one of my readers said, she likes the authenticity and honesty of my blog so when i talk about positive thinking and happiness, i am not trying to put up a facade but because i am trying to work towards those things. And i know that positive thinking wont make this all disappear, but i dont think it will make things worse! I dont want to write a bunch of negativity and lots of the same old posts so i choose to not write about my thoughts/how i feel so often, but that does not mean i am lying or not being honest. Just that not everything needs to be posted. But i do my best to be as open and honest on here and to also try to get myself and my personality across, even if it is hard through just words (unless you are very talented, which i am not.)

I am also going to seek help through a therapist. As i have mentioned before, i cant tell others to seek help for their problems if i am not following that advice either. I give out advice i would follow myself in the same situation. Or advice based on facts/studies or my own experience, but i know i need to follow my own advice. However, just deciding that i need to talk to someone and accepting that fact is a huge thing... Something i havent ever been able to do. I have never wanted to talk to someone, never been open to the fact of going to a therapist and never imagining that i would seek help from a therapist myself, on my own accord. That was unimaginable. So just that is a kind of big thing for me. Now i just need to know where to turn, as i could go talk to the psychiatrist at the CF clinic, which was where i did book a meeting but cancelled due to other events. But i feel like i want to talk to someone not related to my eating disorder or CF (Because i am sure i could turn back to Mando as well, but that would just be confusing as i dont have problem with food or eating). I want someone new. ... so i am trying to figure out where to turn to. And then its all about if they have time, if i have time, if i have the money etc etc But things will figure themselves out i guess, health always comes first. Other things can wait, like i usually tell others.

Anyway, this post is getting long and i need to get ready to leave. But i want to say thank you for caring, and it does mean alot :) I am going to continue with blogging and i will try my best to answer all your comments and such as i will try to be more active there rather than emails at the moment :)


  1. Therapy is really about hitting the right one for you. So many lose their faith in it as they don't manage to trust in their first therapist, while I couldn't imagine talking with anyone else but the therapist I was first given. I don't know if it's correct to point it out but the successfulness of it does strongly depend on the match of the two and sometimes it is a wheel of luck. I hope you won't have trouble finding that right kind of a person.

  2. Do you think you should be so honest online about the way you are feeling? Employers can Google you and that might affect you getting a job? Or in the future? Do you think about those or not care about that?

    1. As someone who is considerably older, and has been involved in many appointments processes, I think that most people would feel tremendous respect for Izzy if they did find this blog. I would expect it to make people want her more, rather than less. And I hope and trust that one day she will receive some recognition for all this, which she so deserves.
      (All that is quite aside from the fact that it is illegal to discriminate against people on the basis of mental illness.)

  3. _of_course_ we care :)) ! just often unsure what to say, but want to help and be there, and definitely thinking of you and praying for you, even when we don't have words to help

  4. Sometimes when words fail, just being there for someone [even in 'spirit' as it's via a computer screen!], can be encouraging.

    Take care Izzy! X

  5. So glad you are taking my words to heart. <3

  6. well done honey i think its a positive brave step to seek help, it may take a while before you find someone you click with so don't be put off if the 1st time it doesn't feel right, it also takes time to build up trust and for the therapist to kinda get you, i know this myself I'm still trying to make sense of my therapist, i feel so frustrated but know I've got to just keep plugging away. i hope it helps hun and please be as open as you want on your blog we want to see the real izzy come rain or shine - you are loved x