Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Answers - random questions about myself

If you could travel anywhere you want in the world, where would it be?

I would say Florida or California or maybe Hawaii!! Though i would also love to visit Norway, different parts of Italy and also New Zealand :)

What did Mando say about your depression, and what do they think about that you are eating very healthy and exercise every day? 
When i went to Mando the last time (August i think it was?) i didnt mention my depression and when answering the questions i didnt answer as honestly as i could have, mostly because i feel that i couldnt get any help from them anyway. My depression is not related to an eating disorder or problems with food so i felt that i can get help in other places. And with my food and exercise my case manager isnt worried :)

How much time do you spend on social media (your blog excluded)?
Alot of time XD It all depends what i am doing though... i mean if i am just home then ill check social media regularly. But if i am away and doing things it can go hours before i check. But i do spend alot of time on social media.

Do you ever get any ED thoughts today or are they all gone?
No i dont. I dont ever get thoughts about restricting or compensating and never feel guilty for eating, not even if i eat loads (i.e days when it feels like all i do is eat). I dont get eating disorder thoughts but at times when i have eaten alot of sugar for a longer period of time, then i get thoughts about decreasing my sugar intake for general health reasons. But i wouldnt call them eating disorder thoughts as that is more that my body is giving me signs that i am eating too much sweet stuff.

If you meet new friends, do you tell them that you have had an ED?
No i dont. Not even my friends i went to high school with (for 3 years) know that i had an eating disorder. I dont tell anyone in my present about it, i dont even mention the fact that i have cystic fibrosis.

Do you ever feel bored now when you don't have a job, or is it enough with the depression maybe :/ ?
No i dont feel bored.... i just feel tired so i dont have the energy to do things. And ive just enjoyed not doing anything, not having work or school. So even if i have known that i should be doing something, i just havent had the motivation or energy for it. I've spent hours just lying in bed and doing absaloutly nothing and havent felt bored because i havent had the mental or physical energy to do anything.

If you could change any three things in your life right now. What would they be?

That i could get a monthly paycheck for blogging and using my social media.
That i dont suffer from depression
That i dont have cystic fibrosis

What are your favourite things about yourself both physically and personality? What 3 things don't you like about yourself physically and personality?

What i like about myself physically....... My height, i guess? My long hair. My arms ( i love how they arent stick thin like they naturally are if i dont strength train).
What i like about myself personality wise.... I am good at listening and giving advice. I would say i am kind and caring.

3 things i dont like about myself physically.... my nose, my face in general, my hands (have weird scars on my hands and my nails are awful :( )
3 things i dont like about myself personality wise: I can be quite and withdrawn when first meeting people. I get too stuck in my thoughts at times. I am good at distancing myself from people when i feel that its "too much" or just want to be on my own or if i am struggling then i tend to shut people out and distance myself rather than talking about the actual problem.

What is the best compliment your boyfriend has given you?

I really dont know, he tends to compliment me often but i am very bad at acknowledging compliments and just sort of wift them off. 

Have you ever regretted having a blog and being so personal in social media? 
Yes at times i have.... at times i wish that i didnt have the pressure and stress of a blog. I wonder what people who dont have a blog do with all the extra time? However there are so many positives with blogging, so much i enjoy about blogging that even when i regret it at times and just want to shut it all down, i know that i wont because i enjoy it too much. I enjoy helping people, i enjoy making contact with other people and learning new people. I enjoy being able to give advice and know i make a difference, but also it gives me a reson to document my life which i love. I love taking pictures, i love writing down small special things in my life or about my day... because who knows, in 30 years i might click back on some old post and read about that day and see old photos! So there is regret at times, but it doesnt last long.

Do you have a secret dream or goal that anyone doesn´t know about? :)
If its a secret then i dont think i should tell anyone :) hahah
I dont think i do... i write down most of my goals and dreams on here so i dont think i have any secret ones. I am sure i have unconscious goals and dreams which i am barely aware of but they are somewhere there in the back of my head. XD

1 comment:

  1. Let me know if you ever come to California. You have a place to stay with me today!