Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Saturday, September 12, 2015
You can't run from the problems in yiur head
When you are fighting a mental illness you may feel weak because you are struggling and life isn't easy. But you have to remember that you are strong, if you get up every day and TRY.
That is.important, giving up is what makes you weak. Running from the problem is what makes you weak, even if trying to run away or give up seems like the easy option, that is because it is easy. But it won't give you results, giving up means that you aren't even giving life a chance to get better. You refuse to make things better and no matter how much you try to run the problem won't go away when it's in your head. Running doesn't solve the problem, it takes away the emotions for a while but you can't run forever, sometime you have to stop and face/fight the problems and why waste half your life running when you could instead stand up to your demons now and not waste 20 years running.
Facing the problem, fighting the problem is tough but unless YOU make a change, fight the demon it won't go away. I know it sounds harsh and I wish that I could tell you that you could clap your hands and take a pill and everything would get better, but that's not how it works.
Like calming pills or antidepressants they don't actually get rid of the problem or make you better,they make you feel nothing or make you feel tired. I mean when I was taking calming pills for my anxiety they just made me fall asleep, no wonder I didn't feel anxiety, I fell asleep but I still felt anxiety in my dreams and would wake up to the anxiety again. But what I had to do was face the thing causing my anxiety, fight it.... realise that the anxiety wouldn't kill me and I would be ok. I just had to be strong enough to face the actual problem. ... make the problem no longer a problem. It takes time and is tough but it's much better than giving up or running until eventually you realise that you HAVE TO fight back. So make the decision to fight against your demons and your problems, don't let them control you.
You can't run from a problem which is inside of your head. Negative coping mechanisms will only work for a certain period of time, but eventually they won't help either.
But it can also be a good reminder that giving up/suicide should NEVER be an option. Never ever. When you are struggling it seems like an option, a good option because things seem so awful and you feel like things will never get better. But if you give up, then things wont ever get better.... but think what could happen in a week, in a month, in a year. I know it can seem awful and like you cant manage another year, but you CAN. But you cant keep going in the same way or same path that you are going now. Instead you need to spend each day focusing on changing towards the better. Suicide is never an option, it is an act of selfishness. Even if the person struggling might not feel that way because life is tough when you struggle, but it is selfish. Think of how many people who die or get told that they have X days left to live because of an illness and then you just throw your life away... i know that type of thining doesnt help and makes you feel even more guilty, but at the same time it does help to think that way. Think of how you would feel if someone close to you decided to kill themselves... how would that make you feel? That is something i have always found useful when life seems a little too tough, then i think of how my family and people who care for me would care and i know it isnt worth it, not ever.