Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Sunday, September 6, 2015
The comparisons via numbers is getting ridiculous
Now a days there is so much comparison between people and its no longer just how a person looks and their appearance. But now it is also grades, how much weight they can lift, how fast they can run etc etc
And yes, unfortunatly i have been part of this. Something which i regret now, its kind of stupid. It isnt necessary... of course there are times you feel proud and you want to share a certain time, weight, grade etc but in the whole, its not necessary... it just leads to comparison between people. Making others feel bad about themselves. Of course, you could discuss the fact that people have to take control over their emotions and feelings and you cant avoid triggers forever. If it triggers you when someone writes how fast they run or what grade they get etc then it is something you need to deal with with yourself, and not hate others for their performance. But ive noticed more and more on social media, and even with friends and family that the main question when you run a race is...what time did you run? Not, how did the race go... did you enjoy the race? Was it a fun run/race or was it tough? No... the main thing people wonder about is the time. But what does it matter.... what does it matter to anyone else, and this is a reminder to myself, because i have posted my race time online. But it isnt necessary because the time i run is based on many different things... how much energy i have, how i am feeling, how my breathing is going, whether my legs and body feel heavy or not. Depends on so many things and in the end it doesnt matter if i run X or Y tempo, and it sure doesnt matter to anyone else either. Everyone can run at different speeds, and that doesnt make you a bad runner. Running is about YOU, about YOU enjoying it and pushing yourself out of your comfort zone. Forget about what speed other people are running, who cares if someone can run 21km and you can only run 3km... do YOUR best, because that is all you can do.
There is alot of boasting and bragging online, and sure... ive done it myself .Sometimes you feel proud and want to share things, but it is a reminder to myself that you know what... i dont want to add to that hype and comparison. Not everything has to be shared.
Dont compare yourself to others, not in how others perform in whatever it is. People are better at different things, some are great at X and others are great at Y. That doesnt make you bad at something, it just means your different and have different 'preconditions' (I think thats the word, not sure.)
This is just a reminder, focus on YOU. Dont care about anyone elses weight, grade, weights they lift, speed they run etc etc