Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Recent questions - Scar on my stomach, rice cakes, compression socks

How did you get the scar on your tummy I was just wondering?

I had an operation the day after i was born :) Its funny because i dont actually think about the fact that i have a scar there... For me its normal and its strange when i think that not everybody else has it. But it makes me unique :) Ive had people ask me before if it is something that makes me self conscious, but in all honesty it does the opposite? hahah. Its a uniqueness and if i want i can always make up cool stories like i was in a battle with a tiger or i was fighting a pirate and his sword cut me XD

*You know you dont take alot of stomach photos when you cant find any photos that show your scar, hahah. I have old ones but they might be triggering.*

How do you make your own rice cakes?
Well i dont know how to make actual rice cakes at home, but you can buy plain ones and then melt chocolate or white chocolate and then pour it over the rice cakes/dip the rice cakes in the chocolate and then if you want to add coconut shreds/peanuts or anything else on top and then put in the freezer for a short while :) = home made chocolate covered rice cakes. Great snack to bring with you to work/school or to eat as pre/post workout!

What are your pink socks for?
They are compression socks and keep me from getting pain in my calves. I get cramps in my calves alot (even though i take plenty of magnesium to try to avoid it) so the compression socks help while running... and well, they are super cool as well!!

Does your boyfriend know about your depression?

I dont think so, i havent told him anyway. I dont really feel like mentioning it either, I am sure he has noticed that i am not really myself, and i feel very bad about that but the best i can do right now is to try. To get up each morning and to try. It took me 4 or 5 months to tell my boyfriend about my blog and my past and that was because i was put in a situation where i had to tell him. But it turned out he knew already, so maybe he already knows but i dont feel like talking about my depression with him. Though please dont follow what i do about this situation. Because if you are in the same situation as me i will always recommend you tell your partner because communication is key, however i do not have it in me to tell my boyfriend even if i care about him. I struggle to talk about my feelings, thoughts and emotions and so i cant seem to manage it, but i am sure it would be good and i might have to mention it sometime if it gets even worse and gets to the stage where i feel that i cant meet anyone or dont want to get out of bed. But hopefully it wont go that far because each day i make sure to get up and try to follow routines.

I would like to know what your favourite book is or what kind of books you like most? 

I havent read a book by choice in years :/ I wish it wasnt this case but either i have no concentration, no time or am too restless so i just havent been able to read a book. But when i was younger i could read 2 books in a week or finish a book in 2-3 days. I read so many books that people couldnt even buy books for me anymore because i had likely read it already. But one of my favourite authors is Jodi Picoult . Ive read all of her books apart from 2 or 3 of her latest books which i do want to read but havent bought or borrowed yet.
  I like books which are real life, but i dont like biographies, haha. But fiction is also good, ive read most of the teenage fiction books and they are a good way of escaping reality and are good books but i wouldnt say they are my favourite. Another good book was Gone Girl ! :)


  1. Do you think you really have clinical depression? Isn't it just the circumstances and lack of routine that's making you feel low. I mean, if you were busy studying right now and knowing where you stand with future plans do you honestly think you'd still feel low or depressed right now?

    1. Yes i would. Neither school or work or my future motivates me at all. I am choosing not to publish every thought i have or how bad i actually feel. This place is supposed to be positive and inspiring, so i am going to try to eep my struggles mostly to myself. But at the moment i can barely get out of bed in the mornings, what i do is routine because i know that i have to. If i dont leave the house or follow routines i would just lie in bed and do nothing, feel awful. I am never someone who would use the term depression lightly, it is a mental illness. When i am feeling low/sad/stressed then i say that, because those things arent the same as depression. Feeling a little sad for a week or two isnt depression, but this is far more than that. But you also have to remember that depression isnt the same for everyone, just like with other mental illnesses, people are individuals and how they behave while suffering is different. For some they dont do anything while depressed, for me... i know that wouldnt help me at all. That is why i still try to sound positive, still try to think positive thoughts even if i feel like a hypocrite at the moment telling people to think positive when i am struggling with it myself. But i knowt hat if i sit back, allow myself to feel the way i do and do absaloutly nothing then i dont think i will get better. But if i make active choices everyday to try to meet people even if i dont want to, try to focus on things that made me happy before, focus on getting things done... it will help. Because doing nothing doesnt help at all. I do of course believe that structure can help me, but i know that going to school or work isnt going to magically make me better, if anything... if i begin stressing its going to make me feel worse so right now i dont know what i need.

    2. Hey Izzy, I think being honest and open about how you truly feel and sharing that on your blog is not wrong. It's real and honest and I think people might gain more of an understanding on depression and offer support. You're only human too. Have you considered going on medication? Sometimes it takes several months for a depressive episode to resolve.

      Love and hugs. Xx