Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Sunday, September 20, 2015

My meal plan in recovery vs. how i eat now

I thought i would do a little comparison of how i ate in recovery (my last meal plan after the countless number of increases i had made to my meal plan) & how i eat now... how many calories i ate then and now.. i dont know. I dont count and dont have the energy to sit and count it all out, even if i do know the calories of all the food.. actually bothering to count it out and add it together is not something i have time, energy or motivation for! haha

My meal plan (2011/2012) - last one

Breakfast: 1 portion oatmeal, 1 dl milk, 2 tbs jam, 2 tbs raisins, 1 fruit & 3dl juice
Snack: 1 crisp bread with 1tsp butter & 1 slice cheese. 1 crisp bread with 1tsp butter & 2tsp caviar. 1 fruit & 3dl juice.
Lunch: 350g food (140g carbs (cooked), 105 g protein, 70g cooked vegetables & 35g sauce) & 3dl juice
Snack: 2dl yoghurt, 1 dl muslie, 5 plums/2 small fruits. 3 dl juice
Dinner: (same as lunch)
Snack: 3dl yoguhrt, 1,5 dl cereal, 2tbs raisins, 1 banana, 3dl juice.
  && either 3 supplement drinks or 1 scandishake & 1 supplement drink.

How i eat now: (roughly.... i eat differently everyday, but this is just an example. Somedays i eat more, some days less) (& its a rough estimation of the measurements.. i dont measure)

Breakfast: Roughly 3dl yoghurt (whatever we have at home), alot of muslie, 1-2 boiled eggs (& maybe more egg whites) & lots of salted nuts & coffee

Snack (this is only 10% of the time) Some crisp bread with spread/nuts/fruit

Lunch: 1-2 pieces of Quorn/chicken, beans/couscous, frozen vegetable, cottage cheese or quark & sometimes halloumi or avocado.
 Dessert: Dark chocolate/chocolate/salted nuts

Snack: This varies so much... it can be yoghurt with muslie/quark/proteinfluff/oatmeal/waffles etc Sometimes this is my biggest meal of the day and other times i dont eat a afternoon snack because i had a late lunch and ate dessert as well, or its just something small.

Dinner: This is similar to lunch though often smaller as i am not as hungry.

Night snack: Varies alot as well. Eggs, oatmeal, yoghurt, quark, nuts, dark chocolate, vegetables etc etc

^^Just a rough thing of how i eat.. though its so hard to say how and what i eat as it varies, haha!

Though now you can see that no, i might not eat as much as i did in recovery and gaining weight, but i dont eat like a fly either, haha. Food is energy!!
   When i was in recovery i thought that i would have to cut down on all food, never eat junk food again, never eat chocolate covered nuts when i was a healthy weight because suddenly i would gain weight if i did it... but that's not how it works. 
  When you begin listening to your body, you find the balance... though YES, it does take a while until you find the proper balance of eating enough. Its something you need to work on, to trust your body to take more, or actually leave on the plate because you are too full!!


  1. Do you read other recovery blogs? Do you feel it's a competition with other recovery blogs... like the bigger ones with many readers?

  2. I just wanted to say I love your blog. I have been following it on and off three years. I come back here when I feel I am relapsing. It's bizarrely reassuring that this blog is still ongoing. Thanks also for your food inspiration posts! They make me feel food is about pleasure and not just about fuel, I believe I had forgotten that.