Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Wednesday, September 23, 2015

My goal for the day was to wake up and drink coffee.... so far i have been successful

Hello :)



First off it feels good to be back to blogging. I needed the 2 days away, to just not even look at my blog. But also I had nothing to write about but now I'm hoping to get some inspiration and creativity back and most of all, focus on positivity.  Even if at times it may seem fake, I want to make this place very positive and spread positive thoughts and positives of the day! Even if it's just simple things :) so if you hate positivity, I am sorry about that!!

Anyway my goal for the day was to just relax and spend the day with my boyfriend. Our plans were to go to his parents house and use the sauna and jacuzzi as his parents were away. So once we had gotten ready we bought lunch and then headed there.




It was cosy to be there and to feel warm! I've been extremely cold recently,  or overheating... no in between or "ok". Either one extreme or the other, weird hormones in my body I guess or something.  But as I have felt like an icicle recently it was nice to finally feel warm! Haha simple things :)


Then the evening was spent with series and snacks. .... best way to end the day after a nice day. Most of all I am trying to focus on being present and not drifting away in thoughts, anxieties and worries.... its going ok, but I find myself zoning out a little too much and feeling too much anxiety. Sometimes I feel sorry for my boyfriend, I feel like he could find such a better girlfriend. Someone who wasn't me and didn't have these problems. ... at times I feel like mentioning the fact that I feel like a terrible girlfriend and that he could do so much better than me. But that might just be insecurities and the voice in my head reminding me that I am no good and that I shouldn't have a relationship.  But I need to remind myself that he chooses to spend time with me and enjoys it, even if I zone out at times and amnt exactly the same as the girl he first started dating. But I know I can get back to my normal me and then things will be better.

Anyway, as usual this post is getting long XD that's what happens when I just sit down and write my thoughts. My way of processing things.






2 comments:

  1. I hope you continue to be honest though if you are having a rough day. don’t be afraid to share the crappy days to! That’s what I find to be most important when it comes to blogging. I really try to showcase all aspects of my life, even the times when I am struggling. Your day sounds like so much fun! I’ve never been in a sauna, but I’m currently in an air conditioned room and feeling cold. I’d love to be warmed up right now!

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  2. Oooh hope u had fun in the sauna and jacuzzi sounds lovely. Ah pet I'm sure your boyfriend loves you very much for who you are or he wouldn't be with you, often when we feel bad about ourselves we think everyone else does too. I'm sure this isn't the case and the fact you can have a nice comforting time with your boyfriend and u enjoy similar things will help with how you're feeling at the moment. Thou also being honest with him too that u may feel crappy cos he may sense it and want to help but feel shut out. he loves u and cares for you hun I'm sure. but most of all he loves you rain or shine so you be yourself hun, if you want to feel positive do if it helps but if you feel crap then its ok to say that too. no one will judge you for it. you are loved whatever mood you're in. hugs xx

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