Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Wednesday, September 23, 2015
My goal for the day was to wake up and drink coffee.... so far i have been successful
First off it feels good to be back to blogging. I needed the 2 days away, to just not even look at my blog. But also I had nothing to write about but now I'm hoping to get some inspiration and creativity back and most of all, focus on positivity. Even if at times it may seem fake, I want to make this place very positive and spread positive thoughts and positives of the day! Even if it's just simple things :) so if you hate positivity, I am sorry about that!!
Anyway my goal for the day was to just relax and spend the day with my boyfriend. Our plans were to go to his parents house and use the sauna and jacuzzi as his parents were away. So once we had gotten ready we bought lunch and then headed there.
It was cosy to be there and to feel warm! I've been extremely cold recently, or overheating... no in between or "ok". Either one extreme or the other, weird hormones in my body I guess or something. But as I have felt like an icicle recently it was nice to finally feel warm! Haha simple things :)
Then the evening was spent with series and snacks. .... best way to end the day after a nice day. Most of all I am trying to focus on being present and not drifting away in thoughts, anxieties and worries.... its going ok, but I find myself zoning out a little too much and feeling too much anxiety. Sometimes I feel sorry for my boyfriend, I feel like he could find such a better girlfriend. Someone who wasn't me and didn't have these problems. ... at times I feel like mentioning the fact that I feel like a terrible girlfriend and that he could do so much better than me. But that might just be insecurities and the voice in my head reminding me that I am no good and that I shouldn't have a relationship. But I need to remind myself that he chooses to spend time with me and enjoys it, even if I zone out at times and amnt exactly the same as the girl he first started dating. But I know I can get back to my normal me and then things will be better.
Anyway, as usual this post is getting long XD that's what happens when I just sit down and write my thoughts. My way of processing things.