Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Monday, September 28, 2015

Monday positivity

Good morning Monday :)

Or it doesnt really feel like morning as i have been up since 7am just havent felt like writing anything.

It's Monday morning and a new week, only a few months left of this year. Crazy how fast this year has gone, though it feels like i have said that every year for the past 3 years. Though it feels like time has slowed down at the moment... i guess when you have alot going on time goes by so quickly, but then when you just have things to look forward to, or just living for the future time slows down as you sort of spend your time waiting, instead of living and being in the present.

Todays plans are to to try to fix some school things, then go for lunch and then try to fix some job things and such. Energy levels are low today so i'll just make the best of the day! :)

I dont have much to write or say, so instead throw back to 4 summer pictures :)


  1. hope it turns into a good day for you, Izzy. thinking of you, lots of love

  2. I'm sorry to hear that your energy levels are low today Izzy, hopefully it wont get you down too much. Sending you my love!

    Also, I'm really sorry, but I have to ask you for some advice...I now work as a full time waitress, which is quite an active job. My weight was relatively stable for a few weeks at a BMI of 19.5, but recently I have gained weigh to give me a BMI of 20 eating the same amount (2300 calories a day). It's stressing me out! I don't why I've gained weight when I am eating the same amount and being more active (!), and I'm scared that my weight will keep going up and up and up, which is hard as I'm having trouble enough accepting my weight as it is. I don't have my periods back yet (after not having had them for roughly 3 years), and I never ate over 2300 calories a day in recovery and I'm scared I've messed my body up! If you could help me out, then that would be wonderful! Lots of love xxxxx

  3. I'm not Izzy, but hopefully I can help. Pretty much the EXACT thing happened to me- even regarding periods. The most important thing is that you keep eating. At first, my body settled at the lowest healthy weight possible for a while and I was somewhat okay with this. But then out of nowhere I started gaining weight despite not changing my food intake. I tried to fight this by at least just gaining 'muscle' if I was going to gain weight. The muscle pushed up my weight further and made me even hungrier. This made me so upset and I started crying to my dietician about this vicious cycle. But she, my dietician, told me that this was normal and nothing to worry about. It's simply your body stressing that you are going to restrict again. It tries to gain more weight (and often people recovering from an eating disorder weigh more after recovery than they did before they had an eating disorder and were 'normal'). By gaining more weight, your body is trying to protect itself against another possible period of starvation. This is where most people make the mistake (like myself) of wanting to restrict again or even just cut out a few calories from my meal plan. But DON'T. Your body is desperate for something constant. Keep your food intake constant and don't go crazy with the exercise. I was doing about four hours a week of exercise at a BMI of 20, as recommended by my dietician. My weight continued to increase and I was so upset. But eventually, it stopped. My body stabilised and after a while, it realised it was not going to be under attack or starved again. It trusted me. And slowly but surely, my weight dropped a little bit. I now get my periods again (although not regularly because I've only been recovered for a year- my body seems to need more time to completely heal) and I am healthy and happy. Good luck and I hope this helps xx

    1. Thank you anonymous! I'm so scared, and feel HUGE as it is...I'm unhappy and never see my weight as stabilising :( should I just keep going at 2300 calories a day then? My weight is really getting to me, but thank you for your advice though it's really reassuring and helpful to hear xxxxx

  4. thankyou anon for the above thats really encouraging as my weights being doing funny things too and i can't explain it.