Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
Listening to my body
Good afternoon :)
Today time has passed ridiculously quickly and it feels like i have barely gotten anything done because time has just flown by. But i have gotten a few things done anyway :)
After breakfast and cleaning my room as well as blogging and replying to some emails and comments i headed to the gym and was excited to be back again. But after a short while of having to change exercises all the time due to not getting any contact or pain i decided to end the workout. After spending 4 hours sitting weird on the plane and also the very hard bed we slept on my hip and lower back pain has flared up again :( It hurts to even bend over, so wont be able to do my favourite exercises - dealifts, front squats and cleans for a while. In this case the best thing i can do is to not do anything that hurts. I can still do exercise and do exercises that dont hurt, but some exercises i cant do... and my favourites as well. But thats life, a week or two where i avoid things that aggravate or hurt and it should be fine again. But it sucks because whenever i sit weird such as in planes, buses, cars for a long period of time the pain comes back and then i feel half crippled as even walking and bending over can hurt. But thats life.... i only have myself to blame because of the pain (i.e from my years of over exercising.).
So instead, i finished my workout with 5 minutes of stretch and then ran some errands and bought myself a big salad for lunch as well as the new quark flavours (4 different flavours) and then headed home.
First lunch (and yes... i got stomach pain from the sundried tomatoes. I never learn.) then washed my hair and face, unpacked my bag and washed my clothes. Then some emailing and now i am just after trying 2 of the new quark flavours - toffee flavour and energy drink flavour. What did i think? I only ate a quarter of both.... that might answer it. They taste weird and have a weird consistency... i much prefer the quarks which are 500g and more runny, hahaha. These just tasted weird and a sort of weird after taste. I still have the other two flavours to try, but not sure if i am going to buy those other 2 again. But i love trying new flavours like this :)
Now its some online stuff i need to do and then i'll see what my plans are for this evening whether i meet my boyfriend tonight or tomorrow :)
How has your day been? :)