Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: email@example.com
Saturday, September 12, 2015
Guest post by Jess
So, it has been about 1 year and 9 months since I first started to develop anorexia and about a year since I first started recovering.
And now I can finally say that I have fully recovered from my eating disorder.
It's really quite scary saying this out loud because it has been a part of my life and a part of my identity for so long that it feels like I'm losing a part of myself.
But I haven't, anorexia was just an unwelcome visitor that I have now evicted from my life.
And let me tell you all, recovery is tough, it's really tough!
I had my days where I wanted to relapse and I had days where I wouldn't eat a thing, I had days where I just didn't care about anything at all, days where I couldn't care less if I was dead or alive.
But I also had great days, days where I overcame a huge fear, days where I would eat ice cream for tea just because I could, days where I felt almost normal again, days where I felt on top of the world because I could see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Now that I'm recovered I don't obsess about the number on the scale, I don't have any anxiety around food, I can eat whatever I like whenever I like, I can go out to eat in restaurants, I can have takeaways, I don't count calories anymore, I'm so much more fun now, I have my personality back, my hair is getting thicker, I'm not constantly cold, my skin is no longer grey, but most of all, I'm free now.
I'm free from the clawing grasp of anorexia, the horrible thoughts in my head that ruined my life and wouldn't let me eat, that made me lie to everyone around me, that told me I wasn't ill enough to recover, that told me I had to lose more weight, that tried to make me kill myself slowly and painfully.
But not anymore, I'm free, I'm stronger and I'm living my life the way I want, on my own terms.
I don't have any thoughts in my head trying to control me anymore, they're gone. And what remains is me; Jess, the true Jess, the Jess that has been hidden by anorexia for too long, but she's back now and stronger than ever before and she's here to stay.
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