Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Friday, September 18, 2015

Cosy lunch with my mum and visiting a university

Today was a cosy day spent with my mum in a university town outside of Stockholm.  As I wrote yesterday I applied to a dietician course which begins in April but as I've never been to the university or town I wanted to know what it was like there.  So today my mum drove me there and we wandered around the campus area (which is huge so we had to drive to the different buildings). We also went to a cafe which served delicious food and small cakes. I ordered a salmon salad with some type of cheese, walnuts and honey dressing and then for dessert my mum and I shared 3 small cakes.  The French vanilla waffle was my favourite :) though after lunch the stomach pain and cramps hit..... my stomach does not want to Co operate with me at the moment,  though I know which foods cause the cramps but I eat them anyway.  So only myself to blame,  though I always regret it afterwards because the pain isn't fun. I really should write the foods I need to avoid in a list and carry with me to remind myself that if I eat them, my stomach will be in pain. :/

But anyway, I liked the town and the university.  I can definitely see myself moving and studying there,  infact a spark of motivation and excitement to begin studying struck me!!! But it will be a while until I get to know if I get in, and then it won't even begin until April. .. so when I get home I am going to look for apartments and put myself in a sating list for student apartments and also going to apply for other programs and courses for spring 2016. Maybe go a psychology or biology course before hand.... not so sure. And this autumn I really don't know how things will be whether I work or study, it's all very undecided for now. It's easier to plan my future than to plan my "right now". But each step at a time!!

Otherwise it was a nice day with my mum. It's been raining like crazy but it's cosy anyway when you just sit in a car! :)

How have you spent your Friday?  Do you have any weekend plans?


  1. I'm glad you had a nice day and are beginning to turn things around for yourself. Even though you have been trying to stay positive, your depression and anxiety have been leaking through your blog posts for quite some time now, and its heartbreaking to see someone struggling like that. I appreciate that you are being open about your difficulties lately and not trying to hide or sugarcoat your posts. Its so much more helpful and relatable when bloggers are upfront about their lives instead of trying to present some phony, enviable ideal to their readers. That sunshine and rainbows crap gets old, fast. Your posts about how you feel and what you are doing about it are way more inspirational if you ask me. Recovery does not equal a perfect life ever after; life will still have ups and downs. I like how you are addressing this reality and showing how you are maintaining your ED recovery throughout this difficult time. I hope you feel better soon. I recall that "dead time" between high school graduation and grownup life being incredibly stressful... I had a full-out existential crisis that led me down some awful paths. Keep focused on the big picture, acknowledge that its totally normal to go through a rough patch during this life stage, remember that it doesn't last forever, and life will unfold as it should in time. Taking care of yourself, keeping communication open, and being as proactive as possible will all help see you through. Do t be afraid to ask for help when you need it - I second that comment made about challenging yourself to talk more to your supports and reach out. Its been such a barrier for you, and it would be great if you overcame it. It is probably the single most helpful thing I ever did for my own recovery (ED and addiction), and also the hardest thing to start doing. So worth it, though. Take care and keep up the good fight. Keep doing the next right thing, and the rest will fall into place :)

  2. That's awesome!! I do hope that whether you decide to choose University study or not, you continue to keep going forward and enjoying life to the full ;)

    My Friday has been spent typing at my PC for hours (University study..) and clearing up the mess of my housemates. Guys can be so filthy Hahaha! x