Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Thursday, August 13, 2015
Today has not turned out like planned at all.
You know when you mentally plan your day in your head and it just fits so perfectly, everything seems to work fine and it just seems like the perfect day? And then you wake up and your energy is not there at all. Or well, physical energy but not mental energy anyway.
I started my day with a 5km run and a mind that didn't want to co operate. It was too warm, too hard to breathe, my legs hurt, my knees hurt, the man running a few meters behind me was irritating me etc etc It was a tough 5km and the route felt like it took forever, looking at the clock and realising that only X minutes had passed but i was ready to go home and lie down and never move again. Which was exactly what i did when i got home. Made myself breakfast then watched the season final of PLL and also the first episode of the latest Americas Next Top Model.... though i dont think i am going to follow it this cycle. It was just "too much" this time.
Then after regaining my energy, i proceeded to clean my room and reorganize as well as clean in the kicthen and cabinets. (It might seem like i am always cleaning, and maybe i am... but thats because i can't seem to keep it clean. XD haha. If i could actually keep my room clean i wouldnt have to clean it every 2nd day XD) Then newly washed hair, laundry etc
It feels good to spend a day at home. This was what i needed, to not do so much... just lie in bed and watch series. I had thought i would go to the gym today, but that wasnt even on my mind today. What i needed was my bed and series, give my mind a break as well and i havent been able to write any posts today. Even if i have ideas, i just havent been able to get them out of my head... all i would have done is sit infront of my computer with an empty document. Blogging really isn't as easy as it seems... many think that you just sit and type, and in some cases that is exactly what it is. But there is also alot of thought behind posts, what to write, how to forumlate it, what to include or exclude, pictures etc so it's not always easy. Even if i love blogging, it is a sort of job as well. Though i dont really see it as a job (as i dont get paid from it, it isnt a job anyway), but its something fun. Which is why i dont feel so much pressure or stress when i have times where i cant think of anything to write. Then its better to just leave it blank until i find my creative streak again :) Hopefully soon!
Also... yesterday evening i had a really good time at the "kräftskiva" with my friends! There were 11 of us in total and i had a great time, even if i didnt drink or eat the cray fish. There was enough bread, pie, crackers, chocolate and crisps to keep me full anyway! :)
Now going to continue with some series watching before it's time to meet my boyfriend!
How are you spending your Thursday?
Have you returned to school/work again, or still have holidays? :)