Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Friday, August 21, 2015
Spending my Friday at home with series watching and my bed
It's after 5pm and I've almost completely forgotten that I have a blog today. I've felt like putting social media to the side today, not answering any questions, not checking emails or social media every 10 minutes. Instead, watching series and drinking numerous cups of vanilla latte!
After an awful night where I lay awake until 3am, not feeling the least bit tired, but deciding to turn the light off sometime at 3am. But then my thoughts started turning very negative. Which might not be so weird when it's so early in the morning and should be sleeping. I guess it's just tough when some of my friends are beginning to study again and I want to start as well. But at the same time, I don't want to go through the same stress again. It's not always easy to grow up. For now i need to focus on what i can do... but i am longing for routines again. Longing for some form of schedule, and actually longing to start working somewhere. So time to start going to stores to apply for jobs, but first i am going to write a personal letter for all the different jobs i am planing on applying for. So hopefully atleast a weekend job somewhere :)
This morning i was woken up at 7.30am, after roughly 4 hours of sleep, because Daisy came into my room and knocked over my glass of water on the floor so my mobile was covered in water and there was water everywhere (i had a shaker roughly 800ml filled with water XD) so had to clean that up and thought i should get up and start the day. But i knew i wouldnt function like a proper human being after so little sleep, so instead went back to sleep and woke up around 10am. I then eventually got out of the house to go for a walk with Daisy and then a very late breakfast when i got home. Since then i havent done much, like mentioned above. But that was what i needed today... tomorrow however i have things to get done. We all need days to do nothing and that was my day today :)
Also, i now know that my sister reads my blog because yesterday she came into my room after readin my blog and told me she knew i had a tattoo... hahah. Good to know that anyway. Makes it a little uncomfortable when people i know and people close to me read my blog, i definitely feel that i cant post as much online then. I am less likely to post how i really feel, my actual thoughts and such... but that is most probably a positive thing anyway, for the future and future careers etc, maybe not everything has to be online anyway!
Below: Yesterdays night snack shared with my sister & todays late breakfast