Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, August 1, 2015

Sleeping away the day

Today has been a day spent in bed and sleeping for the most part. Despite still having stomach pain after breakfast i decided to head into town to meet my friends anyway, however shortly after arriving and the pain getting worse and worse i realised that there was no way i could stand on my own two feet without fainting or throwing up. So ended up taking a train home again with the pain getting worse and worse.
  Once i got home i took a painkiller, lay in bed and ended up half sleeping for the next 5-6 hours. Pain and discomfort, nausea, feeling really hot and then really cold and just the thought of food made me feel queasy.

Now when i am feeling a little more alive and the pain has died down a little, though my whole body aches. Bones, muscles and joints ache making it uncomfortable to do anything, so just spending the rest of the day in bed. As i havent managed to eat anything today my mum went to the store to get some snacks which i can atleast try to eat, so i've managed to get some food into me and managed to keep it down as well which is good. I've had the stomach pain since about Thursday but today it was alot worse. Don't know what it could be, at first i thought it was something in my diet (which i wrote about today) as the pain got worse each time i ate, but it could be something else such as my pancreas (which doesnt excrete the enzymes my body needs to break down food) so it could be something like that... or maybe it's nothing serious at all. I don't really know, but it will just be rest tomorrow and then on Monday i have a doctors appointment so if i still have pain maybe i can get some answers then. But i hope the pain passes because it is awful when my mind is telling me i need to eat and my mind wants food but my body strongly says no. Oh well, small sips of water and small bits of food when i can manage it :)

Not the most exciting post update, but i will be back when i feel better and have more energy to post :)


  1. Hope you feel better soon. I’m sorry to hear you’re nauseous! Be kind to your body. <3

  2. Praying for your speedy recovery! I know how much stomachaches SUCK, they literally make you want to curl up into a ball and want to never wake up. However I am glad to see you got to have some awesome snacks! That snickers looks amazing :D!