Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Thursday, August 20, 2015

Reasons to workout - that arent for physical appearance

Exercise can change the body, there is no one denying that. But i think exercising just to change your body wont get your far... you wont enjoy working out, you will feel sad because you dont see results and you will never feel good enough. There are far better reasons to workout than just to have abs... because in the end, what good are visible abs? Like honestly... if you think having visible abs is the best thing ever, comment below 5 reasons that are so great about visible abs or a thigh gap`?

Because in all honesty, from having both visible abs and thigh gap in the past... they did not bring me happiness. I did not feel pretty or happy, i didnt enjoy exercise, it was an obsession for me. Something i did to not feel anxiety or guilt. Something i did to burn calories, to change my body, to become small and most of all wanted to be invisible. I didnt want the guilt or anxiety over not exercising. Even if i had the body which had once been a goal, it didnt bring me happiness because i was never satisifed. The weight needed to be lower, the bones more visible and more of myself had to dispapear. Exercising because you hate yourself wont get you far.

 Wanting to exercise and enjoying exercise is great, just make sure that the reasons you exercise arent just to change your body. Because you wont ever feel happy in your body if you always want to change it. Instead, find an exercise form ou enjoy and dot hat because you like it. Dont feel like it is a chore each day.

Each time i go to the gym, or run or walk or do boxing i go there with a smile on my face. I enjoy each moment even if at times it is tough, i do it because i enjoy it. And that is a reason why many dont workout, because they dont enjoy it.... when instead they could find some of exercise they actually enjoy, or can eventually enjoy anyway. Because exercising isnt just something you do for 4 weeks to change your body and never do it again... it should be part of a helathy lifestyle WITH a healthy mindset as well. Because if your mind isnt healthy then exercising isnt healthy either.  That is important as well, your mental health should be healthy while exercising as well... even if exercise CAN help with anxiety, guilt and stress... it shouldnt be causing those feelings, or not exercising shouldnt cause those feelings. But i know for me, exercising helps me relieve stress and anxiety.. but it doesnt cause me stress or anxiety. I dont feel guilty if i am too tired, dont have time or motivation to exercise... those things dont affect me. I also know that a few days of not working out wont make me lose progress, it doesnt work that way... then there wouldnt be so many fit people because if they were to lose progress after a week or two, then nobody could get injured, nobody could go on holiday for 2 weeks, because they would just everything they have worked for... but it doesnt work like that.

Think... how long did it take you to reach the stage you are at now? Why would all of that disappear in a week? Just like eating a pizza wont make you gain weight and eating a salad wont make you lose weight... its about what you do most of the time compared to sometime.

Anyway, this post took a turn.. but i felt i needed to write about this, as i get so many comments and emails each day about people worried about losing their progress while on holiday. Or only exercising because they want to have 5% body fat and have visible muscles and abs... but that is still too focused on appearance and even food and exercise (which doesnt have to be a bad thing, but it is still something you dont want to have too much attention on): Anyway, this post is getting too long and off topic.... but atleast i wrote a few of my thoughts out, and maybe it can help someone.


  1. This question is to all readers who lift: how long did it take for you to gain about 1kg after starting to lift? I would like to know how much progress I can expect in a year or so :) thanks in advance! <3

    1. Please don't get me wrong! I'm not doing this for apperence! I'm just scared I'm not eating enough so my body can't possibly build any muscle :/

    2. when you begin workking out it is easier to see progress as the body isnt used to strength training, so the scale can go up in the beginning but that is also due to water retention. Gaining an actual 1kg of muscle takes a while. For me in 3 years of working out (roughly 2 years of strength training) ive gained around 3-5kg, which is both muscle and fat, as well as water retention. But i would recommend eating an increase of 500 per day if you are strength training.... i.e if you eat 2200 to maintain, eat 2700 each day... dont be scared to increase. Your body needs fuel to build muscle, but it also needs rest and hard work at the gym. Dont do too much in the beginning, its better to increase over time and remember to eat enough and rest, thats part of the program as well!

    3. I gained a kilo RIGHT after starting, perhaps after two workouts. Obviously it wasn't muscle (or fat) but it never got off either, that saying the water pump slowly built up as actual muscle. After a year and a half I had gained three.

  2. for me personally the good things about abs/thigh gap are:
    1) cofidence
    2) feeling proud of yourself/your achievements
    3) looking in the mirror and thinking of yourself as beautiful
    4) feeling both skinny and strong
    5) no chaffing (thigh gap)

    these reasons are valid enough for me but I know you can feel beautiful even without the thigh gap and abs. but those two are just a little extra confidence boosters for me I guess. I mean there are plenty of women who dont have an ed but adore those body parts of theirs. I dont want to be mean, this is just my opinion :)

    1. i used to have a thigh gap, but I feel so much more sexy without one. people with wide hips naturally can have a thigh gap, but I have very narrow hips so mine disappeared when I was still underweight!!

    2. We are all different. We are all unique. Some of us feel better with a thigh gap some without. It's ok either way.

    3. Everyone has the right to their opinion, however putting your health at risk, trying to achieve a look that isn't healthy for you then it's not ok. It is better to find happiness in your healthy body, not just try to change your body to look a way that isn't healthy for you. Though this is my opinion, and ask yourself.... If thigh gaps and abs weren't the trend, would you still want them? It is hard to answer this as people are so extremely influenced by the trends and so hard to know what you like or want just because everyone else wants it/has it. Sacrificing health is never worth it and in the long term won't bring you happiness because looks fade and the body changes. But you should be happy in yourself and not just rely on looks.

  3. hey Izzy :) I have a question... do you ever look at your abs or touch them and feel happy that you have them?

  4. I agree. You shouldn't sacrifice your health to a certain look. No matter if you're restricting food or working out, you need to be responsible and take care of your body and mind. In the long term motivation doesn't come from self-hate and self-punishment, but from fun and passion.