I think one of the hardest things for people who don't suffer from mental illnesses is to understand just how awful it is. How depression can make it so hard just to function, to get out of bed, to live a normal life. How the tiredness takes over, makes it almost impossible to function like a normal person. Yiu aren't being lazy or rude when you say that you don't want to meet people or are tired. It's the truth. You aren't being rude when you can't seem to smile or laugh at things,but it's because there is a dark cloud above your head. It is so incredibly hard to explain to people how it is to suffer from any form of mental illness. Because even if people can be sympathetic and try to understand it is hard to fully understand something you've been through. Just like I can never understand how it is to suffer from cancer, others can't understand how it is to suffer from an eating disorder, anxiety, depression. Though I always recommend talking to people when yiu feel down, because people can try to understand and try to help, which is important. Even if they can't fully understand.
But I just find that sometimes when I am feeling really low and so tired that I can't physically get out of bed, too tired to socialise. It can be hard to explain that to other people, as those who don't suffer from something like a mental illness can't understand how the tiredness is both a physical and mental one. Like a barrier stopping you from functioning properly. But you can break free from that!!
This post is just some form of . rambling, trying to get thoughts out of my head. I would never ever wish anyone to suffer from a mental illness, but sometimes I wish that it was easier to explain and that people understood. That when I say I am tired, when I say that I don't have energy or don't want to meet, it's not because I am being rude or mean, but because I don't have the mental energy. That all ixwant to do is avoid people and life for a few days. But I guess that is not always the best option, that infact meeting people is the best medicine. But just sometimes. ... you need to be allowed to be on your own, and I wish that that was ok without feeling guilty for saying no. :/