Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Friday, August 28, 2015
My thoughts at the moment & oreo cheesecake
Feeling a lack of creativity and what to write, so if you have any topic suggestions or questions, COMMENT below and i will try to fix some posts for this weekend :)
I feel like i have absaloutly nothing to write, and in a sense i dont really. I have things to do each day, but at the same time not much is being done. Just sort of waiting until October until i get to know whether i get into my courses or not. Trying to write personal letters for the different stores i am going to seek jobs. Trying to get my life together. Getting asked the question "what the hell are you doing with your days now?" makes me feel panicked and stressed. What am i doing?
I hate thinking that way, i hate knowing that there isnt much i can do apart from wait - in some sense. Of course i can apply to small courses, search for jobs (which i am doing) etc but at the same time, moving city, going to uniersity, starting the complementary courses... i cant do any of those things yet, i just need to wait.
I am filling my days with helping others online, blogging, trying to get in contact with people or businesses. Going to the gym, spending time with family, friends my boyfriend. And also... trying to keep myself motivated each day. Trying to keep my head above water and not let myself fall even further. Each day focusing my thoughts on the positive. Focusing on being kind to myself, taking time for myself. It's not always easy, but i know i can get through the bad times and then the good times will feel even better and seem more amazing!
Today my aunt came over so that we could talk about our trip to Lisbon which is in 2 weeks time, and I am super excited. Just want to get away right now, see something new, do new things.
Then this evening i am going to my boyfriends, hopefully that will make me feel better, because at the moment i just feel very low and would most of all just like to sleep away the days. But that isnt useful or good, instead need to keep up with routines and habits, somewhat anyway! Anyway, focus on the positive instead of the negative. Tomorrow is a new day, and i am more than welcoming it. XD
How are you spending your Friday?