Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Friday, August 7, 2015

Focusing on positivity

Hello :)

Starting the post off in a not so positive way... but the past few weeks i haven't been on top. I havent felt so good at all. I wrote a few weeks ago that i was taking CF medication which made me feel very strange and affected me alot mentally. But even before that i didnt feel so great, lots of weird thoughts... but ever since finishing with the medication i've felt so strange. I haven't felt like myself and felt very negative... scared of my own thoughts as well. Unfortunatly the post which i made about depression yesterday, is exactly how i have been feeling the past few weeks. I can smile and laugh with others, but still there are times, which have been more frequent where i've felt so hopeless, felt so sad and so lonely. The amount of times i have wanted to break down and cry - even in public is ridiculous. And i can't even say why i am feeling this way, i just know that there is far too much negativity in my head at the moment. Which is another reason why i have been a little absent here on my blog... it hasnt been so much of a priority, i've both consciously and unconsciously distanced myself from some things. Trying to focus on finding myself and my inner happiness again. The first step is acknowledging how you are feeling and realising that it shouldnt be that way. Realising that you have better before, but also realising that these times don't last. I try to be as honest as possible here on my blog, that is why i am writing it here, but also reminding myself to focus on happiness and positivity. Not let my mind be filled up with the darkness, the despair and sadness. So i am going to try to post alot more positivity each day, as well as trying to remember to post my positives of the day. If you find my positives of the day boring, then i am sorry for that, but i find that it personally helps me. So that is what i am going to try to do everyday :)

So lets begin right away:

1) It has been warm and sunny all day!!!
2) A morning run... though i've gotten some hip pain afterwards :/
3) My room feels so fresh and feels so much better being in my room now that i have rearranged and painted it white
4) My lunch was delicious
5) I got a job offer... i didnt know they were going to call me, so i was very surprised and hadnt prepared any answers so when i was asked about my "strengths and weaknesses" i almost wanted to laugh because i had no idea what to say. Had to try to keep the conversation going while my mind tried to formulate what my strengths and weaknesses were, hahah. There are both pros and cons to the job, so i am going to take some time to think over it.... Though basically i will be doing what i am doing now, in some ways but getting paid for it. I.e helping people, motivating and inspiring people. But then it will also take a few hours of my day each day, and the question is... do i have time for it? It would mean that less time would go to my family, boyfriend and friends and less time to my emailing and blogging now.... though i would still be helping people, but getting paid which is a positive thing. What i want to work with!! But need to think about it before i make a decision.
6) Positive body image - first time in a while.


  1. Oh, I'm so sorry you're feeling like that. Just wrote about this topic a while back too so I can relate to this. I really hope things will get better for you as soon as possible and that you'll start feeling better.

    Your positives are so nice, might start writing those myself too every now and then since the idea itself is so great!

    I hope your evening will be good :)

  2. Keep going sugar, when there is sun and rain there are always rainbows. putting your feelings down on paper or in your blog will help to get things out and never feel like your blog has to be always positive, everybody has off days and it means that you are just being real. congrats on the job, well done u! xx

  3. A piece of advice I can give you is: express your feelings, don't bottle them up otherwise it gets worse; be a bit selfish, invest time into lifting your mood up!
    You have overcome soo much, you will get through this too. <3

    The job sounds interesting, and you said it's what you want to work with right? Would it be serious or like icing on the cake? ;)

    It's wonderful how open and honest you are on your blog. Wish you strength <3

  4. You’ve seemed so sad recently. :( I hope you have someone in real life you can reach out to right now, and know I am always here via email or anything if you need me. You deceiver the world Izzy, and it breaks my heart to know you are struggling right now. Sending thoughts and prayers your way. <3

  5. Aw, love! Sending good thoughts your way! :) Good luck with your decision! I'm sure the job (if you get it) will make the world of difference! Yes, it will be hard, but I bet it'll be worth it as well :)