Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Saturday, August 29, 2015
Document your life
Yesterday I began thinking about my childhood and how far away it seems. And it is pretty far away, so many years have passed, I have been through so much and I have changed and grown as a person. I am very different to how I thought I would be but also my life is very different compared to how it was back then. Granted when you are 7 or 8 years old life is very different compared to when you are 19/20 years old. But also you are still so young, innocent and still growing up so you have no idea how life will be in the future or who you will be as a person. But that's part of growing up, finding yourself and who you want to be.
However that was not what I was going to write about in the post, as usual I go off track! But I was thinking about how there is so much of my childhood which has been forgotten. Moments and memories which I can't remember and then there are some memories which I wish had been documented. Times I wish that someone had taken photos or videos but back then there wasn't so much of that. Or the photos we did take have been lost somewhere during all the moves my family have done. Of course even now a days photos can be deleted, ruined etc so just taking photos doesn't mean that the memory will be there forever. It is also important to experience the moment and live in the moment,not just stand and film everything and then you suddenly realise that you were never fully present at the moment. Sometimes all you need to do is turn off technology and cherish the moment, keep it as a memory forever.
But I am the type of person who loves to document everything. That's another reason why I love to blog because I can write about my days, how I'm feeling, what I've done. I take photos and can look back on them and then remember the moment. I don't just take food pictures and selfies as it may seem on the blog, but I take many more photos. Of family, friends, where we are and what I am/we are doing. Whenever good things or moments to be remembered happen I can write it down on my blog and it will be documented. Maybe when I'm 40 I will read back on posts and remember what it was like when I was this age. But also it's a way for me to realise that life has its ups and downs but I've gotten through those before, so I can get through tough times again. Not everyone wants to document their life, especially not during bad times. But doing that can help you..... write down what you are going through, what you are doing to change or what is helping you? In a year's time you can look back on that and see how far you have come, hopefully anyway.
Now a days children have their lives documented, some of them anyway. People have their opinions about this, but I wish that I had had that. I don't even know what my first word was... or I think it was "mama" or "yaya" or something. (Random fact: I used to always have pillow cases as blankets and I called them "yayas" and i could have up to 7 pillow cases tied together and I brought them everywhere! Hahah. Pillow cases instead of teddy bears!) But also apparently one of my first drawings was a 3d dog which I wish my parents had saved as I would have liked to see that drawing. Sometimes I wish I had better memory so that I could remember more of my childhood, but at the same time I guess there are some memories which are better off forgotten so maybe it's good that you don't remember everything because there are some moments you just don't want to remember.
These are my thoughts anyway!