Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Saturday, August 29, 2015

Dealing with feeling full

Something i realise i havent written alot about is full feelings. There are many who struggle with feeling full, that that feeling triggers something in your head which leads to anxiety, guilt and acts of compensation. There is something with that feeling that causes so many negative feelings, but you know what feeling full is basically your body telling you..."Thank you for the food and energy. Now thats enough for now. Wait until hunger feelings to eat again." It's your body thanking you for the food and telling you that now it is going to use that food as energy so that your body can continue to function.

Of course, there are times when you need to push past that full feeling and eat anyway, such as if your stomach size has shrunk and you need to expand your stomach size so that you can get the right energy intake into you. Or times when you cant listen to your hunger signals, for example if you need to fast to take blood tests or because you are having an operation and you arent allowed to eat, then you cant respond to those hunger feelings. But otherwise, listening to your bodies signals (if working PROPERLY are important).

But onto the full feeling. Like mentioned above, its a positive thing. Because you cant think properly, make right decisions or function properly when you are hungry. For me personally, if i am hungry then all my thoughts go towards food, almost. My body telling me that you better get food into you right away otherwise no work is getting done. Maybe i am just a little extreme with my hunger, but in general until i am satisfied hunger wise i cant really do anything. In general you shouldnt feel so full that you are going to burst, you want to puke or you cant even move... that is too full. But you should feel comfortably full, where you know you could fit a little into you, but choose not to because that would push you a little too far with your full feelings. You should feel satisfied, not still feel hungry. Though it takes roughly 20-30 minutes to feel full after a meal, so if you struggle with feeling full i.e you are always hungry (due to binging) then drink some water and wait. (Otherwise if you are always feeling hungry ask yourself have you eaten enough, honestly? Are you stressed? Tired? )

If you feel guilty when you feel full, then you need to change those feelings and equate them with positive thoughts and feelings instead. Realise that feeling full = good feeling. You are nourishing and helping your body. Write down your thoughts, think rationally. Take deep breaths, meditate or have a mantra which can calm you down. The worst thing you can do when you experience guilty feelings of feeling full is to compensate. That will lead to a dark cycle which is hard to break. Dont exercise, dont purge, dont restrict, dont self harm. Instead sit still, take deep breathes, drink some tea as that can help if you have stomach pain and most importantly try to think rationally. When you struggle with an eating disorder, it is like rational thoughts are forgotten. But you arent stupid, it is your eating disorder that is stupid. Your eating disorder tells you that something as simple and necessary as food, feeling full are bad and something you should feel guilty over. But your ED is stupid and you need to fight those thoughts, and know that YOU are smart and stronger than your eating disorder. Those feelings of guilt and anxiety will pass, you need to realise that eating isn't wrong, your eating disorder is wrong.

Draw, write, read, lie down, talk to friends or family, sow, lay puzzles, watch series, colour, make a collage book/board, make jewellery etc something to distract you from the feelings and know that you will survive. Dont be scared of feeling full, its a normal human feeling.

Feeling hungry = not good or something to be proud over. Instead, be proud over feeding and nourishing your body!!!

It can also help to ask yourself why feeling full gives you anxiety? It is not something you should feel anxious over.  It's a normal and natural feeling. Think rationally, what is it that scares you? What do you think will happen?  And also what can you do to combat those feelings? Don't let your eating disorder control you, take back your control!

Hopefully this post helps anyone who is struggling with guilty feelings connected with feeling full.


Bloating, indigestion and feeling too full


  1. Thank you, Izzy. I agree with everything here.... Please don't feel under pressure to answer this, but if you feel like it... what about social eating? Surely that is a context where one is sometimes under (social) pressure to override hunger signals? I suspect this is the last major fort I need to conquer in recovery, but it's still a big issue for me even after donkeys' years and even after learning to cope with most other things. But please don't worry - it's fine if you let this one pass!
    Enjoy your race on Sunday! I'm excited for you :-)

    1. Hmm I guess so. I mean you might eat more than usual or eat something just to be social. And that is ok, food is a social thing but it all balances itself out as well. It's ok to eat extra Somedays or eat that cookie when offered or tru some of the home made apple pie you are offered. The problem is more when it's a binge, but eating more than your body might want or need at that moment isn't wrong. Most people do that sometimes and it's ok. It's hard to answer the question but if you know that this is a fear of yours it's even more important to challenge it and keep challenging it until it is no longer a fear!

  2. A good reminder Izzy! When I was very sick, I'd feel full, heavy and uncomfortable after a kidney bean or a blueberry. But now, almost recovered, I feel kinda proud when I feel satisfied after a meal; satiety lets me know that I'm feeding my body properly and I'm strong and fast. And when someone has a craving, I recommend they calm down for a minute and try to figure out what it is they are craving. Always helps! :)

    1. Very good advice!! And well done on almost being recovered!!! You should be proud over yourself :)