Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, August 1, 2015

August 1st

Hello :):)

Saturday Morning and the start of a new month!! There is something about August month which i love. Though June or July are still my favourite months of the year :) I love summer and warmth, even if Christmas and winter has its charm as well!

Yesterday i had a really good time with my friends where we made pancakes and then sat and ate and talked for several hours. I arrived at 4pm and didn't leave until around 10pm, then having an hour long journey home again. But it was nice to see my friends again, though everyone does sound a little dister. Some are moving away, some are having to end relationships because they are moving or their partner is moving. Some don't know what they want to do while others have a 5 year plan (i guess i could count myself into that group). There was definitely a different dynamic compared to when i saw my friends everyday in school, now we are all thinking about autumn and what comes next. Into the real world and no longer the safety of high school i guess. Though i am more than ready for it, I just want to start working and earning a living now. Find my own apartment, maybe travel, move somewhere else....  but then i need to remind myself that i have the rest of my life to move out, once i find an apartment and able to pay for it then chances are hopefully that i wont be moving back in with my parents again, haha. Once i move out it will be totally independant, so somethings i dont need to rush. Though ever since i was 16 i've wanted to move out, it was then i began searching for apartments, only to realise that they cost lots and it is extremely hard to find in Stockholm!! Sometimes i am a little to independant for my own good, don't like asking for help or having to rely on others... i prefer to just sort things out myself. This can be both a negative and a positve!!

Not so sure why i got into that discussion. This is what happens when i let my fingers type exactly what is on my mind and begin to ramble about things off topic :) Thats what happens inside my head usually!

Today my plans are to meet my friends in town and watch the Stockholmpride parade. A few of my friends are dancing in it and me and my friends might walk in the parade as well, depends on how we're feeling!! I personally think it is awesome that Sweden is open and accepting (to some extent) about LGBTQ and having the pride festival and such, though of course there is a minority who dislike it. Though i prefer to not talk about these things on my blog as everyone has their own opinions and that is ok :)

Now i am going to let my stomach try to digest my breakfast - i have realised that there is something in my diet that is making my stomach hurt like crazy, so need to do some eliminating/decreasing of certain food to see if that is what is causing the pain, because i am getting awful cramps and pain after eating certain food. :/


  1. I hope you will find out what food causes you pain :( btw.. I have a question... when a person with anorexia restricts the nutrients during puberty then their body stops developing? if a person recovers while still in puberty will the body continue to develop (grow taller, breast growth etc)? like, can it be 'resumed/continued'? thanks :)

  2. Hope you feel better soon! i can't drink energy drinks without having horrible stomach pains-maybe it's something in them? I am determined to make pancakes that look as good as yours-so light and thin and ready to fill with delicious toppings!