Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
Am I over training?
I got asked via email recently whether I am over training or not - because I workout alot.
It got me thinking a little, I mean depression/feeling low as well as insomnia/sleeping problems are symptoms of over training. So I began thinking about this, but I came to the honest answer of no. I am not over training. I have before. ... I didn't listen to my body and kept pushing myself. Even when I was tired or unmotivated I worked out anyway and eventually I "hit the wall/burnt out". My body and mind said no.... I became depressed again, exercise was no longer fun and instead of making progress I was getting weaker and felt more tired. I was barely sleeping and lost all motivation for life, exercise which had once been fun turned into a chore. My body said no with lots of tiredness,muscle soreness, aches and pains. And my mind was foggy, a grey cloud and depressed thoughts. It was awful, the thing that gave me enjoyment and was my stress and anxiety relief was the thing causing me anxiety and stress. So I stopped. ... I took a break and that helped. I began to listen to my body again and found balance. So I know what it's like to over train, to push the body and mind too far. To do too much exercise and eat too little. And that is not the case now. Not sure why I am having sleeping problems, but I have been having a lot of nightmares which make me hesitant to actually want to sleep and once I lie in bed my thoughts and mind won't turn off so I lie awake until 1-3 am. And with my low feelings, they have been creeping in the background for a while. .. but then I began with some strong CF medicine which was the catalyst and triggered alot of negativity and dark thoughts and since then I've been working on getting rid of them. On finding myself and the happy me again, and I am well on my way :)
When you workout I think it is super important to be aware of over training and the symptoms of it. If you find yourself showing symptoms or exercise is becoming a chore or something negative, maybe take a break. I think it was great that a reader asked me the question. ... got me thinking and helped me rule that out. Sometimes you need an outside perspective as well :)