Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Thursday, August 13, 2015

117 questions (part 1)

At a lack of words to write at the moment, or more... i have many ideas but i can't seem to formulate them, so for now i will just answer these 117 questions and hope that i can type out my ideas and thoughts soon :)

  • 1:Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
  • I dont think i'm confused at the moment ;) Or the season final of PLL left me a little confused.
  • 2:Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?
  • Sometimes, though its mostly good morning snapchats. haha Same thing really.

  • 3:If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?
  • I would care a little because i dont think drugs are good, and well.. i dont know if i could be with someone who did drugs.

  • 4:Do you find it easy to trust others?
  • Nope. I have trust issues and find it very hard to let people in to my life and to talk about things on my mind etc as i dont feel i can trust people. Even if they have shown me that i can.

  • 5:What were you doing at 11PM last night?
  • On Tumblr ;)

  • 6:You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?
  • Most probably my friends or my boyfriend.

  • 7:What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
  • I would dump the guy and most probably feel a little heartbroken. But i wouldn't blame the guy, i know i would blame myself... think that it was because of me. That something was wrong with myself and my self esteem would plummet. Though not because my value comes from a guy, but because i am the type of person to blame myself for everything. I.e if someone walks into me, it will be me who apologizes and feels bad.

  • 8:Are you close with your dad?
  • Yes, mostly. He lives in another country so it's not like he is always there for me and i can openly talk about everything, but i've always been a daddy's girl, and i know that he is always there for me when i need him.
  • 9:I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
  • Not last night, i was just with my friends.

  • 10:What are you listening to?
  • At the moment i am addicted to the band Sixx:A.M and their album "Modern Vintage"

  • 11:You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
  • This is so hard to choose... because i LOVE lots of liquids. Coffee, different types of teas, diet sodas, energy drinks etc etc but i think i would have to go for water... because well, you can always add some lemon or berries if you want a different flavour!

  • 12:Do you like hickeys?
  • I dont really have an opinion about them. XD

  • 13:What time do you go to bed?
  • At the moment around 11.30pm - 3am. But preferably i would like to fall asleep by 11pm.

  • 14:Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
  • I dont think so....

  • 15:Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
  • Not as quick, but i can still text quick with one hand!

  • 16:Do you always answer your texts?
  • No... i am the worst at replying to texts, calling people back and answering on FB. It's mostly that i see the notification, dont have time to answer, the notification disappears and then i forget. 

  • 17:Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
  • No.
  • 18:When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
  • A few weeks ago!

  • 19:Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
  • Yes :)

  • 20:What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
  • That i was extremely tired and didnt know why i had been awake for so long XD

  • 21:Is anyone else in the room with you?
  • Not right now. Sitting alone in my room.
  • 22:Do you believe what goes around comes around?
  • Yes, sort of anyway.

  • 23:Were you happier four months ago than you are now?
  • I dont actually know.. it was April and i was super stressed, life felt pretty tough then. But i havent exactly felt super happy the past few weeks/months so i dont know if i was happier then or now? But at the moment i have so many fun things to look forward to, so its hard to not feel some form of inner happiness anyway!
  • 24:Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
  • Yes :/ A friendship which meant alot to me was broken and i still dont know the reason why. She just stopped answering my messages and calls and no longer wanted to meet up... and eventually i stopped trying. But i never know why she distanced herself.
  • 25:In the past week, have you cried?
  • Nope. I rarely cry, dont even know if i have cried in the past 2 years or so... or i most probably have due to an injury or something.
  • 26:What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
  • I'm not wearing a shirt, hahha. Wearing a sports bra at the moment.

  • 27:Do people ever call you by your last name?
  • No.. my last name is so long that it would be no point.

  • 28:Is anyone ignoring you right now?
  • My dog.

  • 29:Do you have a best friend?
  • Yes :) But she lives in Ireland :/

  • 30:Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
  • I guess so. 

  • 31:Who was your last call/text message from?
  • My mum, yesterday evening!!

  • 32:Are you mad at anyone?
  • No :) I dont get mad so often and dont hold grudges either.

  • 33:Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
  • Yes, my boyfriend is older than me.

  • 34:How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
  • Twenty two

  • 35:How many more days until your birthday?
  • 3,5 months... dont have the patience to count the days.

I used an online site instead:
110 days until my birthday
  • 9,504,000 seconds
  • 158,400 minutes
  • 2640 hours
  • 110 days
  • 15 weeks and 5 days
  • 30.14% of 2015
  • 36:Do you have any summer plans yet?
  • Well summer is almost over now, so i have autumn plans now!

  • 37:Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
  • It depends if my boyfriend also counts as a good friend, haha.

  • 38:Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
  • Yes... sort of. :/ I have a few too many secrets at times.

  • 39:Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?
  • Yes. Like mentioned above, i am good at keeping secrets. Though they arent bad secrets, it's just that somethings dont need to be told.

  • 40:Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
  • Yes.

  • 41:Do you think age matters in relationships?
Yes, sort of. But it depends what stage of life people are in... i mean its a little weird if a 20 year old is dating a 50 year old or a 15 year old dating a 25 year old. But its not so weird if a 38 year old is dating a 48 year old.

  • 42:Are you available?
  • To talk? To date? To meet up?.... None. hahaha.

  • 43:How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
  • 1

  • 44:If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?
My belly button. If it wasnt that it is supposed to hurt alot, as well as not being able to workout for a week or two after, i would most likely get a belly button piercing. But at the same time, i have sort of grown out of that phase. I prefer tattoos to piercings.

  • 45:Do you believe exes can be friends?
  • Yes :)

  • 46:Do you regret anything?
  • There are alot of things i regret in life, but i choose to not focus on them. Because the past is the past, mistakes were made, things were said... you cant take them back or undo time. But you can move on and learn.

  • 47:Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?
  • When my parents will get out of the kitchen so i can make lunch :) hahaha

  • 48:Did you ever lose a best friend?
  • Yes :(

  • 49:Was your last kiss a mistake?
  • Hahah, no!

  • 50:Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?
  • Because i am already with him.

  • 53:What was the last thing you ate?
  • Breakfast.

  • 54:Did you get any compliments today?
  • Nope :( Though i have only been at home and out for a run, so there isn't much of a chance for compliments then.

  • 55:Where are you going on your next vacation?
  • Lisbon :)

  • 56:Do you own anything from other countries?
  • Yes!! From Ireland, England, France, Spain, USA, and most likely other countries!

  • 57:Are most of your friend guys or girls?
  • Girls!

  • 58:Where have you lived most of your life?
  • Ireland... but i have almost lived in Sweden longer than Ireland soon ;) strange. (in total anyway)

  • 59:When was the last time you took a long drive?
  • I dont have my drivings license yet, but the last long drive i sat in the car for was when we drove to where the boat is docked, last Saturday.

  • 60:Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
  • Hahah yes!!


  1. I legit got my bellybutton pierced last night. It really doesn't hut at all!! I have a very high pain tolerance, so that may have influenced my opinion a little. But there's like a tiny pinch, and then a weird pulling sensation. And then it's done!! I've been wanting to get mien done for SO long. It was my birthday present to myself haha. I think they're super cute :) But I get the whole no-exercise thing. I've been really careful, and I've experienced no swelling and it doesn't hurt at all, as long as I'm not touching it!! I'm planning to go for a run tomorrow morning, so hopefully it's okay!!

    1. That's so cool :) I have a high pain tolerance as well so not worried about that but I'm not that interested in belly piercings anymore. Though I do think it looks great on people, it's just that I don't want one myself. Hope your run goes well :)