Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Wednesday, July 1, 2015

You will never be 100% ready for change

The truth is that you will never be 100% ready for change. There will always be something holding you back. Whether its just that you are comfortable where you are or nostalgia which tries to tell you that things were better before and so you dont need to change or move forward, instead you need to move backwards to a place that is supposedly "better".

When you have an eating disorder you often have thoughts such as "i am not sick enough", or "i'll wait until i hit rock bottom before i try to gain weight," "i need to lose more weight before i can try to recover", but those thoughts are silly. And signs that your mind is unhealthy, because normal and healthy people dont wish to be sick. But also thinking you need to reach a certain point before you begin to recover.... of course when you hit rock bottom you mentally and physically have no choice but to begin climbing your way up. But why make the hole even deeper before you begin to climb back up again? It does not get easier, it's not like you hit rock bottom or look/Behave very sick and suddenly it's easy to recover, because it's never easy to recover. No matter what it is you are struggling with, making the choice to recover is a tough one. But it is also a choice you have to make all the time... because you are always given choices and you need to choose the one which makes you healthiest and happiest (long term, not just what takes away the anxiety at the moment.)

If you keep waiting for the moment until you are ready to change, that moment will never come... you need to make the choice, now and everyday until recovery is not a choice anymore, because you are recovered.

Stop waiting for some moment when you feel like recovery will be easier, instead make the choice now and know that it will be tough but it WILLget better. But then you have to make the changes necessary for it to get better!!

1 comment:

  1. How do you know even where to begin in regards to recover? have a therapist but that's air and I'm clueless on what steps to take on getting better. Anorexia restricting type