
When you have an eating disorder you often have thoughts such as "i am not sick enough", or "i'll wait until i hit rock bottom before i try to gain weight," "i need to lose more weight before i can try to recover", but those thoughts are silly. And signs that your mind is unhealthy, because normal and healthy people dont wish to be sick. But also thinking you need to reach a certain point before you begin to recover.... of course when you hit rock bottom you mentally and physically have no choice but to begin climbing your way up. But why make the hole even deeper before you begin to climb back up again? It does not get easier, it's not like you hit rock bottom or look/Behave very sick and suddenly it's easy to recover, because it's never easy to recover. No matter what it is you are struggling with, making the choice to recover is a tough one. But it is also a choice you have to make all the time... because you are always given choices and you need to choose the one which makes you healthiest and happiest (long term, not just what takes away the anxiety at the moment.)
If you keep waiting for the moment until you are ready to change, that moment will never come... you need to make the choice, now and everyday until recovery is not a choice anymore, because you are recovered.
Stop waiting for some moment when you feel like recovery will be easier, instead make the choice now and know that it will be tough but it WILLget better. But then you have to make the changes necessary for it to get better!!
How do you know even where to begin in regards to recover? have a therapist but that's air and I'm clueless on what steps to take on getting better. Anorexia restricting type
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