Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Things i am looking forward to

At the moment i am sitting here with a smile on my face, thinking about all the things i am looking forward to in the next 6 months of the year!! Its good to live in the present and not get stuck in the future or the past, but its also important to have things to look forward to. So below are some of my things i am looking forward to, and feel free to share some things YOU are looking forward to in the next 6 months!!! :)


  • The midnight run!! Ok... so i havent actually run more than 500m in quite a few weeks because i havent had the motivation for it. So a little nervous that i have lost all my conditioning, but i am going to try run 10km atleast 4 times before the race... so i have 2,5 weeks to get myself out running again!!! But in all honesty i amnt worried, even if i dont manage to run before the race, it's jsut so much fun once you are there. Of course there is one major hill which is a killer, but last year i managed that fine and i hadnt done so much running prior to the race because of my sprained ankle.

  • 2 more races and then i have finished my 'run tour'. Both races are 10km as well, and one of them is just two weeks after the midnight run. The only thing is that i havent actually signed up for these racces yet because each time i am going to pay the site just tells me i cant.... so am a little woried that i cant pay for the races and so dont get a place? But i am going to keep trying!!!

  • 3 years declared healthy. Yup, you heard that right. August 15th (same day as the midnight race) i am 3 years declared healthy from anorexia & depression (those were my diagnoses, but include purging, binging, over exercise and self harm!) Imagine... 3 years, and in 2 years time i will have finished the follow up program at Mando and no longer be a patient of theres. And then it will have gone 7 years since i first began treatment there... can you imagine? In just 2 years time, 2017 i will have finished all my follow up and treatment for an eating disorder and it will have been 9 years since i first developed my eating disorder. crazy. crazy. crazy. 

  • My trip to Lisbon with my aunt. I've never been to Portugal or Lisbon, so it will be fun and it looks beautiful there :)

  • Hopefully starting school again. I keep checking the page, longing for news, longing to know if i have gotten in or not... but i wont actually get to know until the end of September/start of October, but still... i keep checking and hoping that maybe there will be some information. I just dont want to see that i havent gotten accepted because then i dont even know what to do with my autumn :(

  • Christmas and New Years. I am really looing forward to these two things this year, dont know why... I just want it to be Christmas now, which is strange. Because i am not a winter or christmas person at all.

  • My birthday. It is esxciting... i can't wait, but at the same time. I have never really liked my birthdays, i would prefer to just skip the day, be told that i am a year older and skip all the birthday attention and celebrating. While growing up i cried at almost every one of my birthday parties. I hated the attention, i wanted people to go home (hahahah) and just got tired of people. And then when i was sick my birthday celebrations were ones of fear... suddenly everyone was looking at me, i was forced to eat cake etc and after i recovered i still didnt like birthday celebrations for myself because 1) the attention was on me and 2) i never know how to behave. I dont like when eveyrone looks at me or when i have to open presents infront of everyone, i prefer it to just be a normal day. Call me crazy, but on my birthday i much rather get up, have my freetime and do my own thing, go to the gym and then maybe go for brunch with the people closest to me. (That was what we did last year.... and also last year the day after my birthday we moved house so everything was in boxes and we had to spend the evening cleaning the house. But i didnt mind that, because then it wasnt some super special day, but i still got to eat cake and we went for brunch! XD)


And other things i am looking forward to!!! Maybe a trip to England to celebrate my step sisters birthday, maybe getting a tattoo etc etc


So feel free to share what you are looking forward to :)

2 comments:

  1. The progress of the novel project thingy, prom (in February but the dancing practice kicks off in December) and whether I'll find a personally interesting pair, switching rooms with mom and decorating (already been to Ikea), new courses at school and all the unknown as well!

    Yey!

    - Katriina

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  2. It´s so great to look at the positives in the future:) Your´ll do great in the runs. I´m looking forward to Friday XD it´s pay day and weekend starts. My positives are a bit less ambitious.

    A question? Do you think it´s a good thing that the ed treatment has such a long follow up? We don´t have any such... At least that I would know about. At least no one is keeping track of me even if I´ve been inpatient three times. So do you find it good or bad?

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